RE: Tempting Fate
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It's pretty wild to read this post after having a relatively unproductive day stuck in thought loops. Thought loops which mirror the exact thoughts and questions you've raised in this post actually. It wasn't completely unproductive, but overall I was stricken with future oriented and reality based caffeinated cognitions.
Risk is unavoidable in the reality we live in, and there's certainly subjective based moralities ascribed to some of (or all of?) the risks.
Does fate even exist? Do we control our own destinies with our actions or are the paths we tread predetermined? Is this all just a simulation?
If fate doesn't exist and this is a random chaotic chance based simulation then some value could come from caring less. I'll give a working example here:
I live in a shared living space where I'm constantly picking up other peoples trash and dealing with insane levels of poor treatment and ridiculous accusations for things I didn't do, instead of thank you for going above and beyond to try to make it a livable environment for us all from the people who behave this way. Jealously, envy, hatred, deception, have even endured extreme violence in the form of a brutal attack months ago and my head hurts where I got pistol whipped as I type this. In fact the more good I do, the more they seem to hate me, and sometimes I can hardly take it anymore and spaz out on people because it just won't stop no matter what positive influence I add to the mix. I'm stuck here financially and there's no other option than to just deal with it.
We certainly have free will, I think... because some days I really struggle to not go Rambo on these SOB's, but I make that choice not to... Could be we only think that we have free will of choice and free will of thought.
Some days are great no matter what, and others suck no matter what. Life is certainly uncertain, that much seems certain.
Sorry to hear about the poor circumstances you find yourself in. I have always found that when faced with such alternatives, I have preferred to simply live innawoods. Regardless of economic productivity being negatively impacted by it, the peace and tranquility I experience innawoods is worth what it may cost me financially.
Thank you for your kind words @valued-customer.
At the current juncture I have found that I am in a favourable position to fight back with the pen, and I am actively doing so. It will take some time, but the end result is being able to live in the woods and not lose my livelihood, so long as I survive the random chaos that ensues at times. I am confident that I will considering I have made it this far.
Hope all has been well with you my friend.