At 30 Drama, Posting Late
I have always been individualistic, both in my thoughts and words. I'm not exaggerating when I say that I often shun everyone—family and friends alike—whenever I don't feel like socializing. Social interactions exhaust me, especially because I feel obligated to maintain a happy demeanor and avoid being a downer in the presence of others.
I get frustrated when classmates can't go to the bathroom without company or when female friends feel they can't live without a man. I despise stereotypes and the saying "birds of a feather flock together." Each person is unique, and I firmly believe that everyone can decide and survive on their own. It's possible to engage in transactions without reacting to whatever or whoever crosses our path. I prefer avoiding petty talk and building friendships.
Ironically, at 30, I find myself constantly surrounded by people, both young and old, almost 24/7. Suddenly, everything has become personal and relational. My room has become a hangout spot for Thaniel, Bea, and Annie; they're my cousins.
*** Who would have predicted that I’d be able to keep up with this? Haha.
I find it incredible how I am living the opposite of how I once felt about life and relationships with people, and I am so thankful for it. The change has been for my own good.
Why do I feel like I'm living my life backward? Haha. I was so burdened when I was younger and now feel more relaxed as I grow older. Turning thirty feels like a significant milestone for me 🤭.
Adulting is still tough, but maybe because I faced more challenges before, I can now appreciate and find some peace in my current situation.
A bit of not-so-advice: Hang on, whatever you're going through; you'll get used to it and eventually find yourself able to breathe even underwater.
Posted similar idea in my socmed account; just edited this better.
Photo's me and mine.
Thank you for reading this far.
Sometimes, life experiences can trigger such changes. There are some parts of me that I no longer relate with now, but few years ago, I thought those parts of me where actually me lol.
It's great that you mentioned "not-so-advice" because hanging on in whatever someone's going through is a race of whether you'll learn how to breathe underwater first, or you'll drown first ✌😅
This was written last year, so do you still think the same way as to what you've written here? Or there were more changes in your beliefs and principles in life?
Hahaha my 31st drama is coming up. I got drafts already especially I'm having another major move, I decision I haven't entertained before, being away from my dream farm. Haha
I tend to reflect so much when I'm turning a year older.🤭