I'm more than a category

I’ve always known I wasn’t the loudest voice in the room. Even as a child, I was the one who watched rather than jumped in first, who listened more than I spoke. My energy has always been on the low side, not in a way that makes me weak, but in a gentle, steady way.I actually became more conscious of this at the age of 9, i was young but understood my environment.

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When something unexpected happens, I don’t react in wild bursts of emotion. Instead, I take a deep breath, stay calm, and think. My friends often joke that I must have ice in my veins , some say am timid, but I know it’s not coldness neither am I timid, it’s just my way of understanding the world before responding. I’ve never been one for drama or quick outbursts of emotions.

Shyness has always been a part of me too. In crowded rooms or new situations, I find myself shrinking into the background, observing before stepping forward. It takes me time to open up, but when I do, people discover a depth they didn’t expect. While others rush to be seen, I find strength in my quietness.

One thing I admire about myself is my ability to adjust to changes, I do adapt at a fast pace even though I prefer routines. Life never stops shifting, and somehow, I’ve always found a way to bend rather than break. I take my time to understand the new shape of things, and then I move forward.

Despite my softness and calm nature, there’s a fierce focus burning inside me. When I set my eyes on a goal, I chase it with unwavering determination, perseverance and consistency. My energy may be low, but my will is anything but weak. I work steadily, piece by piece, detail by detail, until what I’ve envisioned becomes reality.

Some might call these traits melancholic, and they wouldn’t be wrong. The melancholic temperament is thoughtful, deeply feeling, often quiet, and careful with decisions. But I’ve always hesitated to label myself so strictly. There’s something limiting about fitting into a single box as if my entire being could be summed up in one word.

I believe I’m more than a category. The only category I define myself by is the christos.My quietness isn’t a weakness, and my shyness isn’t a flaw, they are parts of my unique language with the world.

There are days I wish I could be more spontaneous, more bold in the way some people just dive into life without a second thought. But as I’ve grown, I’ve learned to embrace my steady pace and my reflective heart. I don’t need to be the loudest to make an impact, and I don’t need to rush to prove my worth.

So while I may carry pieces of the melancholic temperament, I don’t fully claim it as my identity. I am an ever unfolding story, calm yet determined, shy yet strong, low energy yet deeply powerful. And in my own quiet way, I’ve come to love the journey of discovering who I truly am beyond labels, beyond expectations to be identified in the person of Christ.

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