Dear Mama... Real Talk Prompt 5

Hello Real Talk family and friends of Hive🤗! Welcome to my Real Talk Prompt 5 blog. Own your voice, no judgment❤️.

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There's a song I love most, about a mother. It's in my language. Every time I call home, I sing a song for Mama. But this particular song hits home every time. "Mami wi ithaga, you're my hero (Mom, you're my pillar, you're my hero) Riri waku Mami witu ni nie ndaitire thi (Mom, I am the one who wore down your youth)" Why this song hits is because I am the one who took her girlhood, her first fruit of the womb. In this entry, allow me to lean more on the motherhood side of parenthood.

There's nothing I wouldn't do for my Mama. To see her comfortable, to see her at peace, to see her smile. All the struggles she has put up with to see me and my siblings this far, I owe everything. It's a debt I'll never be able to repay in full. When I remember how she had put her dreams and ambitions on hold, I break, but she had to, to embrace motherhood. Her dreams go unanswered because time, life and motherhood have not been at all fair to her.

This is a woman I'd gladly put my things on hold for. Not because of obligation but out of pure love and gratitude. I hate that life is not fair, I hate that opportunities are not equal, I hate the imbalance of wealth. There's so much I want to give her, so many life experiences she should get to enjoy, but life always has other plans. For all the nights she went sleepless, especially when my brother was just a toddler, following an accident that happened under my watch.

For all the disgrace of her mother-in-law, all the stress she has been put through and has persevered, for the long hours she has worked to put us through school, to feed, to clothe. For her unconditional care for my son, just so I can spread my wings better while she cocoons him in her embrace, I absolutely owe her everything. I'd walk through thorns to save her. She has countlessly walked through the same for the past twenty-eight years, with no complaints, even on bad days, with a smile to hide her pain. A resilience she has taught me.

So yes, to answer this week's prompt, I owe my Mama everything. Gratitude is not enough to express all she has done and is still doing. And I can only pray that time will be on my side and hers too. So I can repay most because I can't repay all. I will forever be in debt.

Thank you for reading❤️. Yours truly, @wamiru