FIGURING IT OUT

Looking at the hivelearners first topic for this week, I feel like crying, lol. All my years on this earth have been filled with me learning one thing or another. A lot of them came to me easily and naturally but some were just hard. Really hard for me to comprehend them. I even once had an experience while learning a particular song I had to sing and post on hive some months back. I was literally struggling to get the rhythm of one particular part of the song. My siblings had to keep singing it over and over until I finally got it. You will be amazed of the mistakes I made.

Life is always about learning, at least for me. The moment I’m not learning, it always feels like something is wrong or I’m not doing something right. I know how many times I have made efforts to learn different things in this life that proved futile. Most of the time it was really frustrating and I would even give up (at that point). I have come to understand that trying to force learning some things doesn’t work for me. Taking a break and revisiting it does. Knowing that, it made learning so many things that I once taught impossible possible.

One of the hardest things I have even tried to learn in this life that I’m even still struggling to learn is how to study and study well. I see a lot of persons who study for few hours or longer and they do it so well. But when it comes to me, it’s always different. I study but most times it’s hard to prove that, so I just chose to accept it that I’m not studying well. I have asked for advice from different people. I have watched different YouTube videos on it but then, it is still hard for me.

Interestingly, I have come to realize that I’m actually the one holding myself back from giving my all to learning how to study. The only reason I’d actually want to master a skill like this is because I want to know things and know it for myself, honestly it’s sad that I’m doing that to get a degree and it feels way harder that way. Well, I’m still a work in progress and I don’t plan to give up. The end goal is to keep learning and I know one day I’ll figure just how to study and be a master at it.

I just have to change my mindset as someone once advised me. I always find myself limiting myself and thinking I can’t do well in some areas because I see how people do it and I try to compare my effort with theirs and once it’s not up to half of what I see them put it, I easily think I’m just joking with myself and start losing hope. I’m not all that bad in my academics but then, I know that I have so many opportunities to do way better than I’m doing now but due to the fact that I keep thinking that I can’t because I’m not getting it right, I’m barely sustaining being an average student.

Anyways, I’m at least grateful and happy that I have so many other areas that God has blessed me to be a master at and it’s not even as if I’m not trying to be good at this one so I believe as they say, that practice makes perfect and though it seems as if it’s taking forever, I’m very sure I’ll get there one day. I’m also very grateful for the family God has blessed me with, they have been super supportive in every way in helping me learn how to study. What I need is patience to find what works for me and they are so patient with me.

There are a whole lot of other things that I find difficult to grasp how they work and how to do right but then, most of those things I believe are things that I can be a master of when I’m done figuring how to study. And this is another reason why I can’t even give up on learning how to study and be really good at it. It will happen because I trust God to make it happen.

Thank you for reading through. ❤️