𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Monday 23 June 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

Well clearly I am no AI, neither A nor I, I guess...

Yesterday, I started all happy about being torn between two worlds, looking back at the mini magician I was at some moment in time, and then got lost in a traffic jam of words.

Ending up saying a lot, but not finishing what I started.

Where I tried to end up and where I ended up were two very different places. But it was the essence of what I planned to write.

I started out as this happy-go-lucky, all into energy, elements, and other not-so-normal stuff, apprentice.

Lucky to receive many teachings, but unable to truly understand.

It´s like reading poetry... It´s easy, nice, and short. But to truly understand a good poem, it will require you to carry it with you for a lifetime.

For it to become a part of you, so you do not even notice it's there anymore.

Then, when the day comes, you finally can sit down, and look at that old yellow piece of paper you have been carrying around it all makes sense.

The poem has become part of you, and you can apply it to everything in life.
Where it was just words before, it has now become your way of life.

I have not looked at many things I learned, too busy keeping my head above the water....

But once I started to float, once I did not have to keep moving to survive.... I found that what I studied years ago has truly been absorbed by my essence.

I thank myself for not forgetting, for giving me enough time to come full circle.

Smiling, I look at myself back then, and now, thankful I am finally ready, grateful I have given myself exactly what I needed, and need going forward.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

There are many sides to all of us, some sides we hide, even from ourselves.
I can be an opinionated little prick, a loving father, or simply a lost soul.

“If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is: infinite.”
— William Blake, The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

Jim Morrison named The Doors after this concept. I agree that reality is filtered through our limited perceptions. But we can Break On Through to the other side.

"There are things known and things unknown, and in between are the doors."
— Jim Morrison

Our minds filter & reduce everything to a digestible and categorizable size, but in the process, we lose sight of the infinite abundance that surrounds us.