Bifurcations

29 days ago

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When I woke up today, I didn't have any ideas for my daily post here on Hive. I'm keeping this half-focus, of doing a daily post.

A lot of this determination came about when I realized that what I thought was difficult turned out to be a good daily addiction.

I've never been very good with words. Anyone who knows me knows that's not my vocation at all. The teaching area I chose at secondary school was the natural science group. I liked the exact sciences, but I was never very good at math. Chemistry and biology were my passions. I loved understanding the world around me, and the subject made sense whenever I had time to study for my exams.

Years ago, however, I had a philosophy teacher. He aroused my curiosity about philosophy, not only as a science that is considered to be less exact, but much more glamorous and more exciting than I would ever have expected.

When I reached the end of secondary school, I ended up applying for the course I was to leave a year later. I was studying Chemistry (common branch). The course was taught at the Faculty of Sciences, although it was very challenging, as it had a lot of mathematics subjects (algebra and infinitesimal analysis). After a semester, and with a few subjects already done, I decided I had to apply for another course that would suit me better. Something that had a bit more biology in its curriculum. So I took the Higher Education entrance exams again, and this time I was placed in Veterinary Medicine. That was in 1998. After all these years, it's probably not what I want to do professionally until I retire.

It's strange when you think you're sure you want something very much, but then you realize it's not quite like that. We fill our hearts and minds, we do everything we can to overcome difficulties and overcome fears and limitations that we thought we had. And in the end... It's not what we wanted, or what we had envisioned.

Nowadays, I end up doing other activities, most of which end up being a little more solitary, but which open the doors to intellect.

I couldn't see myself just doing what I do professionally, without anything else to fill me up.

Creating habits, one of which I acquired a little over a year ago, of sharing part of my day or my thoughts in a publication, forces me to organize my ideas, my thoughts.

It also helps me to set new goals and focus on what we have “scattered”. Tidying up the drawers of our minds leaves us more space and more time to do something we love.

Who better to understand us than ourselves? All we need is the sincerity and honesty not to lie or omit anything to ourselves. To look at problems and difficulties with an open mind and the courage to overcome them. These barriers are not always overcome, and often when they are, we end up on the other side.... Put your feet on the ground, on what you think is firm ground... and a feeling of incompleteness overwhelms you. And we set off again in search of a new direction.

A direction that will give our life more meaning, even if it may never have any!

Thank you for reading my daily reflection.