I want to become a baby again!

Do you just sit down and wish you could go back to being a baby again? Like being pampered like a treasured egg? I feel this way every freaking time that I go through challenges and I keep wondering how I grew up so fast. One minute I was my daddy’s little girl, jumping and playing games with him and the next minute I am a lady? How did it happen so fast?

Every single time I remember how I didn’t fail to tell everyone who cared to listen that I wasn’t a child back then makes me cringe. See how I threw away a golden ticket to be free from the challenges of this world. If I had magical powers I won’t hesitate going back to being a baby all over again.

Take me back to when my only problem was not missing Hannah Montana on Disney channel or what colour of dress to wear my doll and I would gladly follow you back there without making a fuss but sadly if wishes were horses beggars would ride.

I miss waking up in the morning and screaming “I’m hungry” and seeing how fast my breakfast gets prepared, not me waking up in the morning now and cracking my brain on what to eat and the strength to prepare the food.

I miss living a carefree life and being genuinely happy.
I miss being naive about all the bad things in this world.
I miss not having bills to pay.

How the adults in my life back then made adulthood look amazing without listing out the difficult parts of it still annoys me to date. They made it look like I was missing out on all the fun associated with being an adult but these people lied to me.

While growing up the only thing I looked forward to in adulthood was the sense of freedom. Back then I just wanted to become an adult and leave my father’s house and be free from everyone. Since this was my main aim there was no time to prepare for the tasks ahead of me.

I miss The free money I got whenever visitors stopped by the house, imagine getting free money for just smiling and being nice to your uncles, aunts, and relatives and earning alongside, but now it feels like there’s no free money anywhere again, everyone is guarding their money. Right now even if I smile from morning to night there’s no free money up for grabs.

I miss having all my family members under the same roof and having unending sibling fights and the rest choosing their camp, now we just argue over the phone and each hang up which takes the fun away from everything.

I miss my dad taking me to the market to buy my Christmas and New Year dresses and shoes and me wearing them on these two important days with so much pride and dignity. Now Christmas is almost here and there’s no Christmas dress nor New Year dress

I miss this and many others and it’s so bad that I can’t go back to those wonderful times. I just have to keep going forward.

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