My breast cancer diaries: God is your only source.
So I am officially done with round 1 of metronomic chemotherapy with taxanes.
Hooray!
I feel that I dodged a huge bullet by not being given the whole poison all at once and by receiving weekly smaller doses I managed to get by without having the horrible side effects that you might read about on the world wide web.
Metronomic chemotherapy is usually given in much advanced stages but because of the autoimmune reaction that I have had from epirubicine the doctors agreed that I shall receive a different type of chemotherapy. God has definetely worked His magic as I have read various studies that prove that it is better to administer small quantities of chemo as it helps the body cope with the effects better and not lose health completely. I am surprised that doctors still go with the maximum tolerated dose which means pumping several bottles of this drug into your veins an entire day once a month. Grueling! As I sat to receive my treatment one week prior to this I have had a gentleman next to me receiving this gruelsome regimen. I looked at all of those big bottles filled with toxic fluid ready to be pumped into his veins. I cringed. I am sure by now that God has saved me from becoming an angel and somehow a metronomic approach was orchestrated by the universe to save my ass. Thank you and Amen!
I started to write for my book. Lots of pages that I have not published anywhere. Not even here. I am determined to publish it at the right moment.Oh....and if you would only see the cover. Ha ha ha. I am sure nobody would expect what I have in mind.
I find writing and journaling to be extremely therapeutic. I have done quite a risky thing since january and I do not recommend it to anyone. It was just my choice. I decided to stop taking the medication for this so called autoimmune reaction that I no longer believe in.This means dropping the plaquenil, colchicine and prednisone. I am only taking medrol 1 day prior chemo and the day with the chemo. That is it. It was a huge risk. But I felt that my body can create his own pharmacy of drugs and after reading the side effects I decided that I do not want to put more chemicals into my body. Call me crazy. I did it. And I am fine. I am pretty sure that if I were to tell my oncologis she would put me on maximum tolerated dose again. But guess what? I did not tell her. Ooops I did it again! I lied to an oncologist again. Lol. I know my body. I feel stuff. I have had the exact feeling of doing a certain risky thing just like in november 2025 when I felt that saying no to the third round of chemo was right. I was right. And since then things unfolded in a miraculous way.
You see.. I started to change. A lot. But it is on the inside. I have written about this process for my book and there are some details about this transformation that I would prefer to have it in my book only. You will understand me when you will read it . One day. My book about this will sit in your hands.
I celebrated my birthday on the 2nd of february. 36 years old. What a beauty! I bought myself flowers and treated myself in a nice teashop with a delicious tea and a slice of fig tart. I love myself now as I am more than I ever did before all of this. It is strange. It is part of my transformation. Shedding the old cocoon. I am amazed by how resilient is the human spirit who has deep roots in God. Without my Creator I would not have had the strenght and the audacity to do some unusual things for someone diagnosed with a scary word.
I am not scared. I am the most atypical patient this facility has seen as well. I see how doctors are not mentally prepared to see someone entering with a huge smile on their face in their office, not relying on their white coats for salvation. I rely on God and I know that His ways will prove to be the best ways. I feel that I am getting guidance from Him. You would say that nobody in their right mind would drop their medications for an autoimmune reaction but believe me when I tell you that anything is possible. It is the inner voice that I am learning to hear more and more and I love the process. It is hard to put into words the thing that I am going through right now: an inner transformation. You can't walk my walk and I don't ever wish it for you to ever do. But as I am writing I hope to instill a sense of rebellion inside of you as well: do not conform. Do not do the thing everyone expects of you. Don't believe everything that you are being told, even by those who are recognized as authorities. I have always had a problem with authority in the sense of putting my trust into one person telling me that this is how we run the show. Why?
I started to meditate. Oh boy. Oh boy oh boy. The stuff you are reading about meditation start to make sense once you begin to really anchor yourself into the practice. I am amazed by the results that I achieve at a soul level with this practice. I would highly recommend it to anyone.
I am also discovering the benefits of dancing. Do you know that you can do more than 5000 steps just by dancing inside your house and releasing a lot of tension? Try it. A chemotherapy patient dancing her chemo away. Yes. That is me. I used every good day to do just that when I felt like it. People expect a sad destroyed face when they hear chemo and cancer. I will not offer that twisted satisfaction to anyone. I am smiling all the way and I know that God is behind my enormous inner power. Something about the medical world has to change when it comes to this. There must be better ways and spontaneous remissions show that our body has the capacity to heal without any of the chemo crap. Now you might say : ok, so why don't I just drop it and move on like this? I feel like my journey is not ended and my soul tells me to continue. I feel that listening to my inner intuition has proven to be vital. I am sure that I am in divine hands. I can't explain it through writing to you, you can only feel it.
I work on my paintings when I am in treatment because I like to use my time wisely , doing what I like. I valued time before but now I value it more at a spiritual level: it is not about being efficient at any cost, it is about using my time for my soul doing what my soul wants without letting the noise of societal pressure to dictate otherwise.
The noise has been massively reduced because of this experience. And here I am in this point in which many of you have read about and never believed: I am deeply grateful for this experience, with everything that has come along the way and I would never want to change anything and anyone because I value so much who I have become and what I discovered about myself in this process. And I feel that this is just the beginning. I am more than my body and more about this single moment. So are you, wherever you are and whatever struggle you think you are going through...One day you will sit quietly with your hand on your heart and feel the power of your Creator. And in that very moment it will struck you: that is the only thing you will ever need. You are enough. You are loved. The Earth is just a temporary playground and we're here for having fun.
P.S. For some reason I was unable to upload pictures to this post , I had quite a lot lol. Unable to contact server, oh well I guess I will keep them for the next time I will scribble in here
Hello brave woman.
I'm glad to hear from you.
I'm glad you haven't let yourself be defeated emotionally. I agree with you about following your intuition. I, in particular, stopped taking painkillers. And I control my blood sugar levels through diet.
Our body is a marvelous machine; it intuitively seeks to survive. Keep dancing, keep painting; this will keep activating your inner pharmacy.
Sending you a big hug from Venezuela.
Hooray adios to painkillers yes yes yes. I feel you and you feel me. There is a lot of evidence that our body is a genius that even scientists struggle to understand. We are capable of creating our own medicine. It takes a leap of faith and an unshakeable trust in the Divine which is above us and inside of us.
Dancing is wonderful ! I just discovered how good it feels to just jump and enjoy the music, I was not a dancer before. It is a very interesting experience for me and I am sure that nobody would expect a chemo patient to dance around lol😅I think that God shows His power through people and how they cope with adversity. And this is why in my case, your case and other atypical cases we can see the power of our Creator unfolding and making doctors raise their brows.
Big hugs to you too!🤗
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Greetings @creativemary ,
What a lovely, lovely post....your thoughts shared revealing your confident assurance in our Creator...
“for by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him:” Colossians 1:16
“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.” Isaiah 26.3
It is faith alone in Christ alone for salvation/eternal life.
As you explained in your post....It is an inexplicable life he has given us...very difficult to explain...but those who live it....know it well.
Keep studying his message to us through his Word the Bible....hopefully you have come across a Pastor who teaches from the original languages...of Greek and Hebrew. Proverbs and Psalms have many passages which are easily understood. Proverbs chapter 8 is a fave of Bleujay's .
Wishing you well,
Bleujay
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Yes I have discovered a new sense of empowerment which comes only from the Source. It is difficult to put into words but I try as I feel that spreading the word about it is a form of showing my appreciation for God. I feel that I am only beginning to peal the beauties that God has prepared for me to discover inside my heart.
Amen🙏
Got the side effects handled better than expected, key insight for others. Keep it up!
Oh yes I am sure that my Creator helps me through this and that I will not conform as expected because I truly believe in a higher power taking control of this. Amen🤗
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Thank you:)
wow that’s amazing news about dodging those awful side effects it sounds like a really smart approach with the weekly doses.
Yes, with the help of God I managed to have a different regimen applied to me. It is my personal opinion when I say that I believe that most patients are being demolished by the classical maximum dose and no wonder that they lose strenght.
Keeping my prayers for you, Mary! Stay strong!
Thank you Gabriela😘, I am convinced that when people pray for me it helps my power to increase🥰🥰
Es usted muy hermosa, tiene una energía positiva, abrazos desde Venezuela