A Mirage

Adulthood is really a scam like I never looked at it in this angle. Sometimes I feel I should whyn back the hand of time but it's impossible. Like sometimes I sit back to remember those days I'll sit down for my parents to provide everything, like I'll even be selecting food😂.
Before I dive in l, let me tell this story of my ignorance once, there was a day I broke a glass cup, and my mum beats the hell out of me because she once warned me to be careful in handling the cup. And me out of foolishness and carelessness I broke a whole set of glass cup, they gifted my mum.

That night my mum flogged the careless demon out of me, the worst part was that my dad was not even around, at least he used to be my rescue agent only if he wouldn't have joined to beat me if he was around...cause what's this carelessness for...
After that beatings that night, throughout the night I was planning of parking out of my parents house to start a new life. The next morning I woke up with my box, I told my mum I'll be leaving and she said' to where' I told her I'm leaving their house, my mum could not help but burst into laughter..and said only of you know what you're doing.😂

Like have always planed to have my own life, you know ...no one will wake you up early, you'll just have your free life. That thought continue in my mind and when they finally gave me admission it was like a release from prison... at least I'll be living alone, probably I'll just visit some holidays I liked...
With that joy, I just could not wait for school to resume,. I arranged my things and was ready to leave.

Just a night in the apartment they rented for me, I was crying throughout, like boredom almost killed me, I felt lonely, I waited for my mum's shout but no more, I waited for my mum to wake me up early but no more. Everything became so annoying like....I have to choose what I eat, and I'll be the one to prepare it. I have to manage my resources so it will carry me the whole semester...I have to take responsibility of my life ...like I didn't like the mini adult life again.

The house i was running from, I was waiting for holiday to reach so I will go back home...
Not knowing that was even the beginning.
During school days I was already wishing a life where I will work for myself, pay my bills and live this matured life..
Fast forward to today, I'm now working and I'm not feeling any fun..I mean I have to balance career life, a fashion life and also my social life...like..the whole adult things comes with plenty responsibilities I never even thought of...
Like.... if all weather was a person it would have been me...if I'm not at work, I'm sewing in the house, if I'm not sewing I'm writing a content..or I'm trying to finish a particular book...
Sometimes I just break down and cry when the load is too much...
They didn't tell me that this adulthood stuff comes with plenty responsibilities..😂

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