Maybe A Nerd

Whenever I remember my school days I sometimes regret the kind of student I was while other times I am proud of the kind of student I was back then.
There is a statement people always make when you gain admission into the tertiary institution they would tell you “Allow the school to pass through you even as you pass through the school” I found it difficult to understand this statement but I think later I understood what they meant by that.

“Allowing the school to pass through you even as you pass through the school” simply means that even if you are trying to come out with good grades, try to explore the school. Participate in school activities and try to build connections as well. That way you will feel accomplished. More like you not only make good grades but also enjoy your school days.

Well, I wasn’t able to allow the school to pass through me. I only passed through the school. There are different types of students in school especially in tertiary institutions where we get to be whatever we want. I was a Nerdy type of student. I always get angry when people call me a Nerd. At a point, I felt maybe it was because I wear medicated glasses to read, so I stopped or when I needed my glasses to read, I just read at home.

But I later realized that with or without the glasses, I was a Nerdy student. I will return from my classes which are usually held from 8 am to 4 pm with breaks in between. Then I will take a nap and head back to school for my night reading by 9 pm and then return to my lodge by 6 am. This was my daily routine and my body system even had to adapt to that kind of lifestyle.
In the early stage when I started I would break down at one point but I later became so used to it that whenever I had a shift in my daily activities I found myself feeling uneasy.

There were lots of school activities then in school, dance competitions, student elections, and Student Union Day where we had celebrities come around, several activities usually happened in the school during this period and I didn’t even participate in any as I was extremely glued to my book. I saw everything fun as a big distraction which was a wrong perspective. I had a small circle of friends. At least I was able to build connections and establish certain relationships with most people.

Whenever I look back, I regret not engaging in most extracurricular activities. I felt like in school then, I wasn’t interested in exploring life and that is one thing I regret. I honestly wish I wasn’t so nerdy and maybe more engaging. Right now I am trying my best to explore more and I think my National Youth Service has helped a lot with this even if most times my nerdy/introverted nature tends to kick in.

So, I was able to go through school and come out with good grades but I wasn’t able to allow the school to go through me because I was a complete Nerdy student.

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