White sheets with questions: Exams and I

Exams are undeniable part of school life which marks the end of an academic session. It's seen as a measure of the amount of knowledge gained by the students through the session. But I don't forget to tell myself that it also isn't the real determiner of true intelligence. Being the top student in class doesn't necessarily mean that you are the smartest. I would like to say that you just happened to score the highest mark.

I've come across several reels and shorts on how to make study much more understandable and easier. The first tip always goes like this..... Read daily. But I don't neither do I have a personal timetable. My reading always begins a little less than three days to the exams. I've tried to immerse the act of daily reading through the topics that were taught each day but I haven't gotten anywhere with it. The only activity I do after school periods are assignments. Nothing more. Which I know isn't supposed to be so. I really need to top up my game especially now that I'm hoping to gain admission into the higher institution.

I can say that I'm more than an average student, good with my books. Studying isn't all rosey for me but also not much hassle. But when it comes to exams, I'm mildly apprehensive. Often times I wonder who came up with the term "exam" even though I know how helpful it can be in keeping students on track. When it approaches, all I do is to remind myself constantly and eventually get married to my books.

What scares or motivates me to read intensely for exams???

To be acknowledged as the top student...nope
To make my parents proud... well yes but not really

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It's more of the feeling of being sitted in the exam hall, staring at white sheets with questions on it and no idea of what to write. It might seem silly but that's the top force which pushes me to read when exam periods pop up. It's okay if I'm able to tackle atleast 70% of the questions. But a situation where I have to depend on others assistance to answer a reasonable amount is what I dread. I prefer helping others out with their unanswered questions than the other way round.

And I guess the fact that I read solo doesn't make it any better. Group study doesn't always sit well with me. Asides from the possibility of gists which are very likely to come up during the span of time dedicated for reading, I personally find it quite hard to read with people gathered around me. And gradually, I drift from my books to fantasy. At the end of the day, I wouldn't be able to get a sentence or two into my head. I find it pretty much easier reading on my own, which is what I've been doing since I was a kid anyways.

I also have this tendency of marking out certain people whom I know are the last people to call out to and then imagine them to be in the same hall as me. With this scenario in mind, I tend to read even more seriously like ever.