Locking In

I think this is the most excited I’ve been about a month in a while. It almost...it almost reminds me of January 1st. A new year with set goals, big dreams, and a thrill that may or may not die after the first two weeks. The month of June is starting with that kind of thrill for me, and I wonder why.

Is it because I’m starting, or in this case, restarting something new? Could it be because I’m gaining clarity about things I’m already doing? Or maybe it’s because this is the first half of the month, and I just know that if I don’t lock in now, I won’t lock in till next year. And we can’t have that, can we?

It’s important to me to get this right, because I’m thinking of the other months and how they passed. They were big and little wins here and there. There were highs and lows. Moments of self-doubt. Moments were I felt too relaxed, and was aware that things were slipping past me, but couldn’t bring myself to care. Eleventh hour moments were I poured in all my energy like my heart depended on it. It was a lot.

What’s going to be different about this month?

There will still be wins, but there’s going to be an intentionality attached to the wins. I just remembered when I said in a post at the beginning of the year that my word for the year was passion. But I’ve come to understand that scaling through and achieving your goals has passion just as the beginning step, you need a lot more other things. Like intentionality and discipline.

Which is why this month will be different. I’m beginning the last seven months of the year with a conscious effort. It’s going to be more tasking than just setting goals because I’ll have to continue even when I’m sad, even when I’m in pain, even when I’m simply not in the mood. In fact, especially when I’m not in the mood, I’ll still have to do the things I need to do.

I know I’m going to be locked in on this because I already proved it to myself by writing this post. I wasn’t feeling it, I needed to study, and I told myself that I could simply just power up and be done with it. But I got myself together and centred my thoughts towards understanding that this is what sets me apart from the people that actually win. Doing the things that need to be done even when it’s hard or unfavourable.

There’s also going to be positivity in everything. To the minutest detail. I mean, I can’t work so hard, and then botch up my plans by being negative, right? The odds are in your favour when you take that final step of being positive. At least, that what I’ll remind myself if few things go awry, and I have that desperate urge to complain or be sad.

Looks like things are already shaking up, aren’t they? I powered up 30 Hive because while I’m still having all these offline goals to achieve, Hive is still one of the loves of my life, and I owe it that support. Have a happy June, everyone. Drink lots of water, and try to stay away from unnecessary drama.

Jhymi🖤

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