Trying to Get Back to Myself
Hello friends and Hivers. A very different type of blog for me today. I'm just going to mention, well summarize what has been affecting me both physically and mentally for quite sometime. It's not all bad because I have had some events that have turned a useless day into a better one.
As a man, I tend to hide and conceal my feelings, emotions, and physical health. Perhaps writing about it will help in a sense. Now I said summarize above and I won't go into great details about everything, only what I feel comfortable sharing. I was really at the brink a few days ago and thankfully my body overcame something physically which I'm hopeful will improve my better well being.
I'm the type of person who likes to be active and keep myself busy. A big reason I do this because it keeps my mind from drifting on the things I'm not happy about. Some of those emotions include loneliness and sadness. To the most part getting out is good therapy for me. Nature is incredible and sometimes it just gives us balance. Sure I still have days where it just hits me hard but I always had the option to get away which would chip away at some by using it as a distraction.
Ever since early February I have lost that getting out whenever I wanted. It has been tough this last 6 or 7 weeks. Some of you may have noticed I haven't been creating much content or engaging that much. Well physically and mentally I haven't had all that much energy.
I discovered I have a medical condition
after a visit to my doctor's office after submitting blood work. This was at the very beginning of February. I would rather not go into it but it it was surely like a punch to the stomach. I even wrote an article all about it but decided to delete and not publish.
The medication I was prescribed really took it's toll on me. It made me nauseous and sucked energy right out of me. It took a good few weeks for my body to adjust to it. The medication has helped for what it's intended to do though. After the four week mark on it my doctor decided to increase the dose.
After taking first dosage I had some bad diarrhea. I had this for two straight weeks. I really couldn't go to far away from the comfort of a toilet. I only went away when I absolutely had to be somewhere. With this horrible side affect I had to fight with dehydration. I just drank water bottle after water bottle. I tell you it was tough drinking water when you wake up in the middle of the night several times but I knew I had too.
I called the doctor office and they were sure it was probably just stomach virus. To be on the safe side the doctor wanted me to go back to my previous dosage. This was very recent as I called on Tuesday. I was due to take my medication on Thursday. Low and behold the diarrhea went away like the phone call fixed it, haha. I can't tell you how releaved I am that is gone. I called the doctor back Thursday morning and it was decided to stay with my current dosage.
So I have been really taking it easy for quite some time. I have only been working my full-time job and doing other tasks that need to be absolutely done. I have been getting plenty of sleep. As of yesterday, I have felt like I'm more like myself.
Today I will be working 30-60 minutes of overtime right as my normal work day ends. I will be off loading baggage from Boeing 737. The pictures above was from Boeing 737 we uploaded on Tuesday. Once I get off I will go home and take it easy.
Tomorrow I plan on doing some spring cleaning in the house and garage. Perhaps I will go fishing if time allows. Sunday I have to take my son out of town to a practice for yet another upcoming all star game. It's really crazy because the practice is over 3 hours away. I may go fishing whiles he's at practice, they have a good sized lake up there. I'll gab about that on another post though.
Well a little bit about what's been going on with me. I will continue living and fighting to get back to myself. Hopefully in the coming days I can turn the corner from the funk I have been in. I really think I will find the better me again.
That's all I have for you this time. Take care, stay safe and enjoy the upcoming weekend 😊 Until next time!
OMG you poor soul, you have suffered so much, I really hope you turn this corner and get your self back to full shape.
That was a rough two weeks and I'm glad that is behind me. Yesterday I sort of had a celebration. I got a haircut and got in for a massage.
Am glad that you went through with this issue somehow and all this is behind you now.
I hope you're getting better and better. My kids got a stomach virus when we were in the French Alps.
Yes I remember you mentioning that. Never fun, I didn't know if I had something or it was side affect of medication.
Seems like another pandemic XD
Just take your time and we appreciate what you share here. You know, every single word is full of energy so it’s never been easy to write but glad you did it to share what you feels like.
Hope you be better, and yeah, fishing will be great!
Thank you a big part of me wasn't going to write this and I took a moment before hitting the publish button. I was all in at the beginning of the year investing in my health, now there's no choice but to keep with it. It could have been much worse if I hadn't went to doctor early in February.
Fish or not I look forward to spending some time outdoors and doing things 😀
Oh dear, no wonder you said February was a crappy month for you. Whatever it is, I hope it goes away very soon and you're back to yourself again. Take care
Thank you I peeled the onion some. Hopefully soon 🤞 I'll be back to myself again, day by day for now 😊
Take care of your health, it's really a struggle as we age.. we tend to develop sickness.. I hope it's not that bad and just temporary.. I do have a sickness to and I am still young 😅 but I want to fight for my life for my dreams and family..
Stay safe always.. btw, you can reach me out if you want someone to talk to.. I'm just on discord..
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I wish I would have stuck to my yearly exams times I might not have this diagnosis 😢 Well what's happened has happened it's like you said fight for your life. I will say it's nothing that can stop me from having a longer life, just got to follow a different set of rules. Thanks for offer that means a lot.
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Take care man! Loneliness is a major issue for men because we are often thought of the stoic ones that just get to work and do things. We also enjoy and require being social and having the interpersonal relationships in the physical realm, as well as having a partner. We don’t need to go into details but I can say that it’s very important to find those things. The sad part is it’s very difficult to do so, particularly in the day we live in. I’m hoping that you can find some or both of them because it’s fulfilling when we do!
As for the health and meds - that’s brutal man sorry to hear that. I know that one of the most important things we can do is improve our diet and what we consume. If you consume soda/pop I would start there. Get rid of that poison and shift over to something less sugar laden and chemical laden with hopefully landing on just water or something with some electrolytes in it.
Hopefully the meds adjustment stays going well!
The whole loneliness issue is very complicated to say the least. Something I have concealed for a long time. Perhaps a light at the end of the tunnel someday.
Yes a good diet is often a great resolution for many things. I mostly drink water, coffee, and an occasional unsweetened tea. I really don't drink soda or anything else that contains sugar.
Since I'm done with well the shits I've been quite a bit better. I'll do something tomorrow and see how I do and feel.
Thanks for the meaningful comment bro, take care!
I hope you will be feeling much better soon.
That's terrible about how the medicine treated you. I hear that too many times. Sometimes the medicine makes you feel worse than the medical issue does.
Thank you I hope things keep improving.
Yes sometimes it works out that way at the beginning. My body has adjusted some to it, it was too hard to figure out how it was affecting me due to the stomach virus I had. Right now it's day by day and tomorrow will be a big test as I'm going to try to do somethings.
Take care 😊
I can feel you, Bob. Makes ourselves busy to divert our attention.
For sure Alice, I'm hoping tomorrow is good day to do just that 😊
I hope you will recover from stomach pain. Glad you do your exercise maybe it could help your health to full recovery.
The stomach bug is more or less gone, thank goodness. Exercise is indeed good. Thanks for stopping by.
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Take a break captain. Going into the forest or some vacation spots, connect with nature, waterfall specifically. Take care of your health :)
Thank you, right now nature is probably my best antitode to find balance. Thanks for stopping by friend :)
Dear amigo, I thought that it is good to read you again but I feel really sorry... I understand well what you have said about loneliness and sadness but I didn't know about your health condition and that make feel sad but you are a strong man with a great heart and sure you will be OK just sometimes that requires time. Those struggling moments are difficult but it's when we have to be stronger to overcome all and nature and maybe fishing and try to connect with your inner yourself can help somehow although when we are suffering, during the process we don't understand why and anything... usually later we does, sometimes...
I just can send you all my best wishes, good vibes and a lot of energy, keep positive thoughts and find yourself because people want your real yourself back, and sure you do.
Big hug Bob🙏💖🤗
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Thank you Amiga. A rough series of weeks, the health diagnosis really was a heavy weight adding something else to deal with. I don't know what became of me because us men don't typically show are emotional side. We normally bottle up and hide them. I guess part of me wanted to release some of it though I didn't go into details. I admit I feel a little bit better now that I see some can relate. I guess that feeling knowing that others deal with similar things is somewhat healing.
I'm sitting here now, the weather is suppose to be a bit cold and breezy today. Fishing not looking all that great of choice but it's not completely ruled out. I will leave the four walls and do something though.
Health wise, now that I'm being treated I can work on it more to improve. Just a different set rules to follow now.
Thanks for the all the wishing, I appreciate your sincere words 🤗 I'll figure out things, every new day has the possibilities of being a better day!
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What a nice message.. thanks! And you will figure out what it is the best way in order to deal with all the things. That is what we have to learn and we all are here to learn in this life... sometimes it's hard, me included, in a dark deep hole for a long time. So remember that besides being a man you are a human being with an emotional soul as we all are, so if you need time or to talk to anyone, feel free to say it, well, I'm here "on the other side" 😉
And in the meantime contemplate nature is good, I'm enjoying the sunlight today a bit here but it's crazy how warm or hot it's feeling today 😅 and I need to rest later, after many stressful days and I will do it after a good lunch.
Hope you are OK and feeling better soon, step by step amigo.
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Thanks Amiga. I enjoyed the sunlight here today it felt warm but the temperature was certainly not especially with the wind. I did what I had planned to do today and it helped for the time being. Let's both conquer the things that make us feel unsettled. Take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend.
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🙏💖🤗 Have a nice and happy weekend you too! Take care amigo!
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I'm sorry you have to deal with health struggles, I know how it feels. I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes last year and have been on medication ever since, but I have taken the lifestyle and dietary changes very seriously and I feel great. I hope that whatever your condition is you get better and have a good quality of life and that you feel your best without bothersome symptoms.
Have a great weekend 🤗
Thank you for sharing your health struggles. Sometimes these things happen and we have to change our way of living to have a good quality of life ahead of us. Thanks for the best wishes and I'm sure I'll get back and be close to my former best!
I'm sorry to hear about your overall health being on the low.
I can imagine the side effect of the meds means that you have to put a halt on eating ice cream — a feel-good food.
Both sound like positive plans for your mental well-being.
Loneliness: You do spend time in nature, so maybe a pet would be good?
Sadness: Maybe you could work on that yourself. Ex. By analysing when you tend to feel those ways, times when you tend to feel those ways more than others, things that might trigger those feelings without you realising, and taking note of things that make you feel opposite, and make them your default response to those things.
I do laughter therapy, and what you find is that coping mechanisms are gold.
The next time you're alone (somewhere private) and have feelings of sadness, try this exercise:
At the end of doing that, please observe how you're feeling. This exercise is supposed to help release happy hormones, and laughter is a natural endorphin, whether it's fake or real laughter. If this is done over time, you might start to feel real happiness with the courage to go deeper into the root cause of your challenges.
The fact that you have written this is an indication that you're on the mend, even if it's temporary.
Good move! The last thing you need is to have feelings of regret. At the end of the day, only share what you feel comfortable about and hit the delete button when you still have the chance to.
I hope that your weekend is going ok despite everything 🤗
Wow what a monster of a great comment @millycf1976 Thank you so much for this 😊
Great advice and practices. I did do what I planned to do today and it was very uplifting for me. All in all about 6 hours in the great outdoors despite it being windy and a bit cold that didn't matter. I'll reflect on it a bit when I get around to putting it down in words 😊
I've done the laugh thing before. It's funny doing a fake laugh than realizing it's a bit goofy than laughing for real.
I'll have to showcase my dog again one of these days. He's an English Bulldog named Watson!
Once again thank you for your kind words and advice. What a nice thing for me to see after having an awesome time out today!
😊 Slowly slowly! No pressure on yourself.
That's awesome. 👏
Today has been one of those days when I just didn't feel like going outside.
Yeah, fake laughter feels odd, but they say the body doesn't know the difference and it helps to get you in a good frame of mind.
I'm looking forward to seeing Watson.
I'm pleased to know that you take the time to deal with your emotions, feelings, and thoughts.
Have a great day further🤗
Thanks again and have a great rest of your weekend
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Hola Amigo,
I am glad to hear that you will go to that practice with your son and if there is a chance, you will fish in a big lake. 👏 I suggested it to you a few days ago because I know you like it. Ok...sometimes we feel bad physically, but doing our part mentally helps our recovery. Get all the bad thoughts out of your mind and put new, good ones in. It can be hard, yes, I know. However, it helps a lot.
Since you feel physically recovered, don't let the thoughts of sadness and loneliness paralyse you. It's not that you deny them, they can be there because it's normal; however it's up to you to watch them, let them in, offer them tea or ice cream, but don't let them stay.
I will keep an eye on you. Take care and take a deep breath. 🙌
Hello Amiga thanks for your thoughts and cares. I held true to my plans today. Oh what a day, I so much needed it.
I'll try to keep filled with positive thoughts. Breath in the good exhale the negatives. A little at a time day by day!
🤗🤠- That's it.
I hope everything would be fine soon and you will be on your better self again♥️.
Go outdoors and have some fun. May you catch fish if you go fishing😁.
Accomplished both 🐠 😊 and it really helped for the time being.
Thanks for the wishes and I hope things get better for me moving forward.
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Be strong dear friend. I am so sure that no matter come your way. You have the strength to overcome them all
Thank you for your encouragement ☺️
This is the kind of things I love about HIVE. I am totally agree with you, my friend.
I hope that the health problem was not serious and that you will be fine. I'm glad you're back to your activities that make you happy! 🤗
Thank you for the wishes and it felt good to do something on my own accord 😊