Abject Failure and dealing with the dassapointment

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Things did not go as planned, but there is something more than the situation that is affecting my actions.

I think that I am noticing a pattern of behaviour in myself, and I think that talking it through and studying will possibly make it easier to deal with it.

Last weekend I had the determination to get a move on and make an effort to grow my account back up again. I had motive, I had the means. Did it happen? No way!

Instead of posting every day, or more like I used to do, I ended up posting a single post for the whole week.

Bottom line, I failed to hit my target. There was a failure to complete and a failure to commit. And from that failure grows more fear. And soon enough, I find reasons to procrastinate and delay doing anything at all!

This sort of behaviour or mindset is self-perpetuating. A fear of failure while limiting your actions means that there is a higher chance of failure and this is something that I need to fix.

I had aspirations to re-build my HP!
I had aspirations to write fiction again, including Maledictus Terra!
I was planning on getting back on the horse regarding my Warhammer Datasheet review series.

Well what to do?

I have identified that I have a problem.

I have written THIS post.

Right now I need to learn of a way to convince myself not to be mentally in a ditch and get get things done! I shall try a few things and report on the results! Perhaps my findings will be helpful to others as well!

We shall see.

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I totally get this; I have a similar problem. I had a long streak of posting every day, but then a mega-stressful week in the real world broke it. The longer I went without posting, the harder it became to make myself post. Eventually I forced myself to do it; it was hard. Gradually I've posted more, but I'm not stressing about posting every day.

If it helps, something I found that worked for me was to post some completely different content to front-ends or communities I didn't usually use together with a couple I could (for want of a better word) "auto-pilot" - things with templates set up and ready to go, still good content but less mentally taxing.

Hang on in there, and let me know what you find that works !

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Yeah... I have an idea or two. I shall let you know.

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I applaud your courage in identifying the situation that's overwhelming you. From there, I recommend focusing on small steps, little by little.
Then, you'll see how much progress you've made.

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Instead of posting every day, or more like I used to do, I ended up posting a single post for the whole week.

Oh, tell me about it... I know that I can't do posts every day, but I could do 4-5 per week... But, no... I like to procrastinate...

You are not alone... And these things happen... It's not all on you; there are some things on the platform, motivation, feedback from others, etc. The good thing is to realize the problem and not ignore it... The rest is a bit difficult, but at least you have detected the issue...

Good luck with solving the problem!

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Thank you!

Yeah, procrastination is terrible!

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