Myself and I
I thought I wouldn't write about anything today, but I don't know why. I blamed it on my recent schedule. I've been pretty occupied that I can't keep track of the days I haven't been writing on Hive, and I'm not gonna lie. I've missed this space so much. Now you might be wondering when I last wrote a post; "Hmm, that was a day ago." Yeah, and it feels like months to me.
After a while of contemplating with myself, I decided to go through the different channels to see what I could actually write or to see the prompt that would grab my attention, and fortunately for me, the Hive Learners prompt did that for me, so I couldn't resist. The moment I clicked on that contest announcement, the first thing I saw was "Who are you?" I felt that question was directed at me without knowing.
Often I try to ask myself this question, "Tarila, who are you?" And most of the time, I won't come up with a definite answer, maybe I don't know who I am. I know I'm sounding a little bit confused, but then I feel like, at some point, I don't even know who I am, or I have just taken the time needed to identify the kind of person I am.
Whenever I'm having conversations with people and they ask me the kind of person I am. I would pause for a while, not answering that, and then they would wonder if I don't know myself that much to answer that question in less than a minute.
Little story: growing up, I've had my entire plan out in my head, by this time I should be married and living happily in my husband's house. But then life doesn't go the way we always have in our heads after those moments of imagination are over, then when we open our eyes, reality will step in like a morning light which shines so bright that we can't resist.
Looking back at where I came from, I would say life has been amazing, though I'm not fully at the point where I want to be yet, but then I'm super grateful and excited for the height I've attained. It hasn't been an easy ride like they say their road to success isn't always filled with a bed of roses, but then being able to scale through those moments isn't always easy.
I don't have many things to say, though, so I'm gonna keep this very brief as much as I can. If my past self saw me now, "Will I recognize myself?" is a very big question. I think my past self is gonna be a bit confused on how I've been able to grow to be the person I am today. Back then, I used to be this shy, quiet girl, who wouldn't utter a word in the presence of strangers, but right now I can speak and express myself in the midst of people.
For that part, my past self will be so proud of me now. I'm grateful for the person I am today and for the person I'm growing to be "I look forward to you".
Thanks for reading 🧡
We get conflicted sometimes about who we really are, it is often said that people know us better than we know ourselves. Life happens, we tend not to achieve our set goals sometimes. It is lovely to see that you have also grown out of your shy nature and can mingle with others nicely.
Yeah. I've changed alot
This story is almost a reflection of me.
I could resonate to your words. I too was very so unsure of the kind of person that I am.
I'm glad you were able to figure yourself out.
Good post.
Ahhh you too. Knowing ourselves can be confusing and unsure sometimes.
You have said a lot , life doesn't always happen as we always imagined, sometimes we understand life and another time we don't understand it again. But we should always be grateful, it will get better.
I swear, imagine in my head then and now have changed
Thank you so much
Growth is inevitable and it's great to see how far you've come, changed from the shy you to the present you.
Yeah I'm really happy I was able to attain that shift