RE: New orchid blossoms in my garden, but it brought back bad memories.

Thank you for sharing your story. People like us, in order to reach enlightenment and not go through the suffering of multiple rebirths must live independently like a hermit preferably in temples reciting sutras, practicing veganism, and remaining celibate. It's a painful yet necessary process. My elder sister also went through a lot. My parents used to blame her for everything including my late brother's death. Only recently my late father understood his past mistakes. Best wishes!