𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Friday 1 August 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

Yesterday was such a trauma, or at least all about it....and this is how I ended my pain:

And what if we did not spend our lives nurturing our wounds and managing our traumas?

What would the world look like then?

Now I will not leave you hanging, this is what it might be like?

What if we didn’t spend our lives nurturing wounds or managing trauma?

What would the world look like when humans chose not to heal, not to introspect, not to process pain—but to simply survive and carry on.

Efficiency over empathy
Strength over sensitivity
Productivity over presence

*We would have a society that rewards resilience, but avoids vulnerability.

That sounds a bit like what I have seen when I looked at my balanced mind, that my balance at times still leans mor toward focused and tough.

That feeling of people “get over it,” move on, and build rather than spending time on introspection.

Now I have grown more balanced, but what if I did not?

What is the cost if society were to accept that life sucks and then you die?

Wounds and traumas do not vanish if you ignore them, do they?
They probably flow into everything we touch:

• Into parenting
• Into leadership
• Into war, addiction, detachment, control

Without healing, trauma becomes culture.
Without reflection, survival becomes hardness.

Which would create the type of society we see after big wars with:

• High-functioning people with shut-down hearts
• Relationships based on roles, not intimacy
• Institutions that demand loyalty but don’t foster meaning
• A world full of action, but not necessarily connection

Healing doesn’t have to mean endlessly digging into the past.
Some cultures live with generational trauma but maintain community, purpose, even joy. They accept suffering as part of life without becoming consumed by it.

So can I find some kind of middle path where:

Trauma is part of being human.
But healing doesn’t mean fixing, it means integrating.
Where there is no need to be pain-free, but to be free from its grip.
Where you don’t have to endlessly tend your wounds, but you also don’t have to pretend they don’t shape you.

I am aware of some of my traumas and wounds, but have I ever truly taken a good look at them, faced them, and then embraced them?

Don´t embrace wounds too hard; it hurts, but do it... gently.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

For me, this is a WTF journey, but I finally know my destiny: Avalon and reaching it with a balanced mind.

Reaching it aware of my wounds, my traumas, and working on that balancing act that could make the mind reach its full potential.

Not that I think I will be able to reach perfection in one lifetime or ten, but I at least looked at things from both sides now.

But be aware, a balanced mind might hide the unseen war between outer silence and inner chaos, never revealing that balance is seemingly and in truth only is a mask, a trap.

Those who are seemingly balanced are the ones that I trust most, because being human means repressed trauma, emotional imbalance, and above all others psychological duality.

Like Rudyard Kipling´s (1865 – 1936) IF

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

Because I looked,

I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mind´s illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all