Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 64

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𝓦𝓸𝓻𝓭 𝓫𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻

Beyond The Looking Glass is the second book in the Unseen series, a story that came to me from the other side. A story where I thought I was just the narrator until I heard the Words of the Unseen.

This second story goes beyond time and place and mixes the long ago with the here and now. Because history keeps repeating, until we learn and do something about it.

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Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 64

Dear Reader, do you know where you are going? Do you see the road ahead?

Are you reading all the signs, and right there after trying to forget?

Are you going there with purpose, or just stumble and fall without a plan?

What if you know that you are high-speed heading for a cliff in a car that has no breaks?

Do spend those last seconds trying to stop the inevitable downfall, or do you sit back and enjoy the ride?

How could you?

How can you sit back and accept that everything falls apart, and there is nothing you can do?

The nice thing about Blondy is that she gives me attention, laughs, and flirts. She is there with me, perfectly timed to fill the void.

At the same time, I remain aware of the gaps in her story and that semi-uncomfortable feeling I get when I try to read it.

I ignore it, I love a bit of psycho, a sharp edge, a bit different.

Is that all there is, or is there more to her? I accept the warning but choose to play with fire.

I blind myself from looking forward.
From seeing the possible consequences.
In the back of my mind, I know I am taking a risk.

All I see is Clau not being by my side, and I that every night she is not sleeping at home she might be in bed with Bas or whoever.

Blondy is my big red self-destruct button on legs. She is the only one at this moment who pulls my mind from the growing neverending emptiness inside.

When I give her the joint and put my arm around her shoulder I know what I have done.

The sex was not special, and having her next to me right now is also not mentally or physically satisfying. It´s the fact that she is there every day that feels so good and I pull her a little harder against me than planned.

"I understand that my place has been taken?"

It doesn't sound mean or bitter, but I wonder how she knows, although you don't know that with her,

"No, are you crazy, it's nothing," I say.

"Amber comes to eat every now and then because at Poels it's inedible. But there's nothing, she doesn't stay the night if that's what you mean by your place."

She looks at me with eyes that say she knows more. While I'm not lying because Amber has to be at the shelter before ten, every night.

"I think you know what I mean and I think you know what that means for us."

It hurts but I know exactly what she's saying.

"But you and Bas," I try.

"Cabilah and Bas, that's different. I don't have anything to do with Bas."

As surreal as it sounds, I know she's right on our level.

Incomprehensible, but right.
And I literally screwed it up.

Maybe I wanted that too, I feel a pressure on my chest now that she knows,

I feel terribly guilty because of The Little One, at the same time, I now realize that I knew it didn't work.

Claudia tells me how she has moved in with a friend. She was planning and organizing, his dad also offered her a part-time job. That is why she was gone so often.

I don´t understand why I am the last to know, why did she not tell me this. But I see the point, she did not want to make the choice between Cabilahs love for Ba, and De Voetjes who wanted Papa Tijnie.

She chose to live neutral, and knowing her she did not want me to know before she had it all planned.

In this crazy universe, she pulled me into, it actually makes sense. And she found her higher ground, she found a way to be fair to all, all but her it seems.

Or maybe it´s her choice finally, to no longer have to no longer be dependent on her dark angel, or her white spirit.

To have a place she could call her own, and sleep in a bed alone. To find her way.

The fact that I told her about Cabilah, De Voetjes, and Sei must have made a huge impact. And what did I do?

I mainly thought about the impact it had on me, and how it felt for me. How I was not getting what I expected that day in Nicaragua when she said "Yes."

She takes my hand; "It doesn't matter, but we can't go on anymore. But I want to keep seeing you and De Voetjes too. We'll have to see if we can organize a play date or something."

She sounds calm but I see her trembling, when she looks up I see tears; "Papa Tijnie why are you leaving?"

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