An Apology to You All
I have been working seven days a week for so long I do not remember the last day I didn't work. Since the weather broke this spring, I have been inundated with work that has caused me to arise at dawn and collapse into bed as early as 7pm. I try to get posts out in the wee hours, while I suck down that life saving elixir, coffee, getting ready for the day to come. I've been posting less and less as a result, and I don't see an end to the load any time soon. Presently it's 11:30 pm, and I'm getting up, trying to stay up to speed on genocide of Afrikaaners in S. Africa, nanoparticles in dental anesthetics, and sifting the net for any new information I can find on human evolution, and the rest of the range of interests I try to keep up on. On top of all this I am caring for an abandoned dog and an abandoned cat every day, in two different towns. I never just post to pump one out, but wait until I feel particularly led to comment, but with less time to read up as my workload rises, my word count decreases.
As much as I wish I could post more, I love to work with my hands. When confronted with a puzzle with broken pieces, I just thrill at solving it, and breaking ground on the aquaponics greenhouse is a dream I've had for years, and I cannot regret doing what it takes to make it happen. I am working harder, longer, and doing more as the weather improves, and it's likely to continue going forward. I neglect my blog because something has to give. I pay a price for my joy in labor every day too, a thorn in my eye from the weedwhip taking out bramble, a pinch of my palm from a tool case while installing a safe, and a painful nip from a chainsaw taking down a tree fallen over, just today. All these tasks were for friends and neighbors, whom it is my passion to serve, and out of these demands I carve time to work on the site prep for the greenhouse with the humble shovel.
I feel like a one man band, but instead of musical instruments I'm wielding tools with my hands and feet, making a racket as I build the future instead of a melody.
On the plus side, I'm leaner, meaner, better looking, smarter, and have a glowing tan burned into my hide I didn't have this last winter, when I was hiding from the rain. Please accept my apology for posting less than I would like, but wish me well as I build the base component of my dream of decentralized production so I can demonstrate the truth of my contentions regarding the future of freedom in our hands. Thank you for bearing with me as I transition from dependence to independence. Thank God with me for the strength to endure the schedule the workload demands, and for the sun in a bottle, good scotch whisky that pours me into deep sleep when I get the chance.
Now it's almost 4am, and I'm just off the phone with a caregiver that's dealing with a dysfunctional family while trying to nurse a 90 year old woman back up onto her hind legs after a stroke. I had to tell her to put the ball in the court of the client's daughter, whom themselves has to sort the family's issues. Sometimes people get caught up in dramas they have no business being involved in that make their actual jobs seem impossible. When they extract themselves from that extraneous drama they can get back to what matters, and what they can do best. That's where I'm at presently, and I hope I haven't left anyone feeling they didn't get my best.
Time for more coffee.
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Dear @valued-customer !
I think you are working too hard right now! I believe you will live a long and healthy life if you get enough sleep and rest!
I hope your health and long life!
I do sometimes feel unrested, but that's generally towards the end of the day's work. Then I take a nap and am recharged.
Thanks!
It's good for you, outdoors and lovely people to deal with, especially that you are needed, just been out and about myself, gardening, picking wild plants to my formulations, visiting old neighbours etc. nice weather makes a difference. ☺️
All of the above. I didn't get here by accident, but because I wanted it enough.
Thanks!
I see no need to apologize for doing what you have to, particularly if you enjoy it and it makes you feel good. Good luck with the greenhouse!
Well, I just wish I could post just as often, but the truth is that it takes me a lot of time to find something that triggers one, and digging only triggers my lumbar vertebrae.
Thanks!
Dude this sounds awesome - I enjoyed seeing this side!
It is actually great looking forward to every day with it's interesting challenges to overcome.
Thanks!
Kind men are always hard workers, is what I have found; because they are always helping others. You don't need to apologise to anyone.
It takes my time away from Hive, where I would post more had I the time.
Thanks!
Grateful to have a peek at your corner of the world.
=) Thanks for sharing!
I guess I'm only just realizing I'm in a bit of a crisis, where every day blends together, and being overbooked results in priorities being rescheduled, which creates unconscious resentment of my lack of regard for myself.
Thanks!
god dude! If we didn't have all those exchanges I wouldn't be so sure you actually exist or are someone's novel.
I know we disagree on a lot of things but you do set such a golden standard for humanity and there is not a hint of arrogance in your words. I always liked your candor and though I am nowhere near as busy like what I've just read, I have been taking on a multitude of tasks lately, doing my best to NOT burn myself out. BUT I notice that I have more capacity than... I should or something? I feel balanced and even invigorated doing more these days, and pouring my energy even into places and tasks that are neither appreciated nor acknoledged.
I am not a christian but it does make me think of Jesus a lot lately.
And for an almost audacious segway - could I be helpful in helping you surrender your current stated obsession with human evolution? That word prompted my truther heart <3 would you happen to be interested in the topic because you feel we today as human beings are the latest biological evolution from a single cell microorganism to a biped`?
I am asking because I got caught off guard one day many years ago hearing the actual case against that commonly accepted view and... I was free. ahahahaha. when that narrative collapsed for me many many other problems dissolved into thin air instantly, and i still have not heard the case since that would have brought the macro evolution idea back to me as likely.
blessings my human brother!
I appreciate your sincerity and offer to disabuse me of my misunderstanding, which you are certainly welcome to take a shot at. I've considered the matter some, and suspect I may be a tougher nut to crack than you might expect, though.
I also feel stronger and better when I am doing more, and I do think we underutilize ourselves as a rule. I'm pretty sure we're all capable of downright heroic acts, but just neither believe it, nor have much opportunity to do so constructively. It's very easy to misjudge our circumstances, or the motivations and purposes of others, and to take extreme action in such a situation can really be painful in retrospect. Just picking up a hammer or a shovel and pitching in just seems outrageous, in a lot of ways.
I realized that supply and demand are out of balance for me, and I'm overbooked because I'm too cheap. That's the problem with working for goodwill, LOL. I do really appreciate your kind words. I YOLO pretty hard about opportunities I have to do what I think are the right things to do, and I am experienced with regret (for some reason(s). Lately I woke up cringing about not taking my kids fishing enough. Such is fatherhood, LOL), so I don't want to end up some spiritual essence incapable of picking up a shovel or hammer and regretting forever not doing so when I had the chance.
Thanks!