Freewrite Dailyprompt: producer of nothing in particular

I have come to the realisation where if doing nothing was an award then I would be the winner every year. I had this thing that always started with the long list, exercise, procedures and everything.

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I woke up, checked where, decided that everything could step down for a second. I was just around, laying, then I opened up to something, closed. I opened so many apps on my phone, closed it, just confused, and that moment I was just scrolling and scrolling and nothing was re-entering me. I had the plan, picked everything, and nothing was ever clicking.

I even decided to start that spoo, just to chase my dream, but that afternoon I told myself it might be too late to start anything now, I should try again, after wasting away my time. It was such a funny moment, but when I just felt like that, doing nothing sometimes, I realized how much less procrastination can really destroy things and make you waste your time so much.

It teaches me some things, it makes you uncomfortable for a while, but with time you have to stand up for something. Maybe being a producer of nothing in particular is just a phase in my life where I have to realize that I'm useless or not. Just a funny and lazy moment there and there.

I may produce something great, but it matters, or who knows that, who doesn't know. That is what it is.