The Uttermost Longing For Definition.

There are times my Heart just seeks for clarity in every aspect, like I just want to know how this is going, I want to know where it's leading to, I want to know the possible outcome of this process, not because I'm impatient, but because I'm tired of trying to read in between the lines, or holding on to possibilities that might never solidify.

It's exhausting to constantly anticipate and interpret, to live in a perpetual state of "what-if"(s). I honestly crave a direct, honest answer, even if it's not the answer I want to hear. Sometimes, knowing the truth, even if it's painful, is preferable to the ongoing uncertainty.

A clear path, even a challenging one, feels more comforting than the constant guesswork. This yearning for clarity isn't about a lack of faith, but a need for grounding, for a sense of control in a world that often feels unpredictable.

It's no doubt I've a desire to move forward, not just react, but to indepthly understand the context of my experiences.

The uncertainty itself I'm not going to lie is overwhelming, the obscurity becomes a burden, more or less an unseen weight. I'm simply longing for the truth to be revealed, even if that truth might be less than perfect.