Knowing Better But Still Struggling.

Hello everyone, welcome to my blog and this is week 205 edition 1 of the Hive Learners Prompt, and for this prompt, I really like the topic cos it is so much relatable, you go ahead to read and see why I said so.

So I had this issue of always taking carbonated drinks, the likes of Bigi cola, Coke, fanta, american cola, this one was my favourite then, I added nutri choco when they said those one were not good but all same , see It was almost like water to me, because any little opportunity I had then, I would go for it, If I was eating, I wanted it, If I was visiting someone, I wanted it, If I was tired, I wanted it, that cold feeling in the throat used to just make me happy for no serious reason, I didn’t even realise when it became something I was depending on almost every day.

So whenever I took these drinks, I always had issues with my flow as a lady, but at first I did not connect it , I just thought maybe it was hormones or stress or something normal, but it kept happening repeatedly, and it started becoming something I couldn’t ignore anymore, on seeing a doctor, I was advised to stop taking these drinks, and honestly I did not even expect that would be the cause, but the doctor explained how sugar and certain lifestyle habits can affect the body system, especially for we women.

It affected me to the point of my period always bleeding nonstop, Imagine being uncomfortable for days without knowing when it would stop, It was frustrating and honestly scary sometimes, so I initially stopped taking it and started seeing improvement and my flow got regular, no monthly pains, and I stopped adding weight too that was when I realised that sometimes the things we enjoy the most can quietly be harming us without us even knowing.

So it really affected my weight too, because I was just adding weight anyhow, and the truth is I didn’t like my weight, I was weighing 88kg at a point, for me that was a lot, because I did not feel comfortable in my own body. My cloths were not fitting the way I wanted them to and even moving around sometimes felt stressful, It wasn’t about what people said, it was more about how I personally felt.

Lol funny yeah… but then I stopped taking them, and honestly, that decision helped me a lot, I now felt lighter, healthier, and more in control of my body, but now somehow, especially when I go to visit a friend or something, I still find myself taking it, something I would not buy with my money again, but I would accept it because it was given to me, even when I don’t even drink all, I still know that I took half of the bottle
and sometimes I will even be telling myself, “Why are you doing this?” while still sipping it.

That is the funny part of habits, even when you know something is not good for you, the familiarity can still pull you back, so I started giving myself a strict rule on taking these drinks, like telling myself I won’t touch it at all, no matter where I am, but still, I still fall victim of sipping little when I do get the chance to, not because I need it, but because it is there.

I think this is one of those guilty pleasures many of us have, ee know the consequences, we have even experienced them before, but self-control is not always easy, the important thing for me now is that I am more aware, and I am trying, and sometimes, trying is already a big step.

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