Not Leaving Right Is Very Heavy

Hey Guy's,
I'm back again

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Something had happened to me some times ago, long before now that made me to rethink and second guess my initial decision to be thoroughly vulnerable in my approach and dealings with people around me.

I can remember vividly telling my friend that I would like to build back the strong concrete's walls I have destroyed in my inmost heart, and i'm gonna do one thing by this",I was going to keep somethings to myself and be moving as an expressionless as I could handle.

I was yet to be done talking when the following questions started springing up in my head:

'What is the essence of living if you cannot reach the depths of your being to build soulful connections?'

Alright How do you want to live? is it authentically or when you just realized that vulnerability is another major component of validation component?

Do you want to grow then try taking calculated risk, i am very Fund's of taking cold risks because of my several experiences. I often ask myself to what end exactly? Moreover to whose detriments?

I ponder and ask questions; is this really the kind of life you desire to be living? I Concluded not.

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If you check well to see, I have this conversations within myself patterning the modes of life I wanna live and the choice kinds of experiences I would want to have,
One among them is just to live so true to my own self and inrrespective of this to occur, I must have to choose over vulnerability, most especially it revolve around my personal relationships with people.

For me this is a risky kind of decision because i know not everyone can handle any form of vulnerability, And especially because alot of people continue to live their lives in denial of who they really are and how they're feeling, or perhaps are just scared to allow there worth to be seen, revolving in past experiences.

Often when the meet someone new who is clear enough to not just 'speak' rather 'open' himself or herself around them, they'll almost back out… and this peril can easily show in form of rejection, insecurity, or judgemental thought.

It doesn't mean that the other person is unkind, they just do not have the capability to either control there vulnerability state or to be vulnerable.

Now to clearify this act of vulnerability is not a sympathetic statement. It is not synonymous attach as weakness, as so many people may mistakenly believe in error.... In a fact view, it requires utmost courage and strength to rise to the peak and to embrace vulnerability and to cleared up oneself above the uncertainties and potential discrimination that can destroyed the vision with it.

It takes even greater courage to choose risks taken, after so many series of disappointments.

But this is how you truly lived.
the way you make deep meaningful thought and connections. this is how you show up in proving your true self. It is how you live.

Risk is scary, yes it is"
risky, you know everything is risky if you refuse to take it up or down.
But it worth it fully for humanity and good living.

If you feel a warmth moving through this words, you are not as cold as you think you are, and this means that you have the ability to love genuinely again, trust completely again. be sure that this is your true nature and you should not trivialize or change it because of whatever the means to you.

Take risks and try something new and allow that your tiny little ignition to keep warming your cold heart.
I'm pretty sure that you can take a chance by working on yourself and view where life will take you as you embraces the fullness of what you and do well to have the courage to express yourself.

Always keep in mind that the meaningful connections you aspire and desire are completely worth risking. And the moment you find your own tribe, it gonna make sense.

I'm gonna leave you all with this words; Your best moments, transition and experiences, are never late or behind you.