Spiritual Sovereignty
Going to try to share this one with my IRL friend as well as Hive, let’s see how they react:
I am finally starting to see just how much of my thoughts and emotions up to this point were not my own.
I’ve never been a fan of the word “empath” because I think to a large degree we are all empaths, absorbing far more from others than we are willing to admit.
I have done all kinds of shadow work to rid myself of the most destructive and self destructive patterns I held in the past but as of recent I’ve been digging into the more subtle habits and thoughts that pop up.
A proper audit of the newest version of myself, the one that I created myself, still shows some relics of the things I learned before I can even remember. There are words that I heard so many times that they become true to me. Even the language used affected how I came to see the world. I didnt consent to any of these consciously, and now I am reaxamining each and every reaction I have to clear out anything that doesn’t serve me.
Nothing here is an accusation, everyone is living a reality that will encourage their growth if they accept it and they act and react in the ways they know how, so anyone or anything that influenced me up until this point was there at exactly the right time for me.
I am not a victim of anything, no matter how easy it is to feel that way. That is a trap that I am learning to identify as soon as it comes up.
How many beliefs did I assume to be my own simply because they have been with me longer than I can remember. How many habits did I learn out of a self protective instinct? How many of those habits still exist today?
The idea that there is ever not enough, or that life is hard, this itself is an assumption which I learned from others. The idea that there is some “they” out there which is responsible for my suffering or the suffering of others. Even if such a “they” exists, I do not agree that they have power over anyone who chooses to see things on a deeper level.
Everything depends on perspective and I think we owe it to ourselves to choose the perspectives that serve us best. That can take a bit of exploring and a lot of digging, a whole lot of facing fears and challenging ourselves.
The desire to engage in a conversation, to participate in a larger discussion or narrative is strong within all of us. Some of us do it face to face and some online. Most of us engage differently with different kinds of people.
But in the process I feel myself being forced into narratives that do not align with my reality. The very framing can easily herd me into a agree or disagree mindset without me even realizing.
The idea that there is a such thing as a knowable objective reality itself is not something I have agreed to and yet every day all day I engage with statements made from that framing. I find myself being sucked back into that frame because its so prevelent in society, except in little pockets which have their own assumptions which do not always jive with mine.
I still love people and want to engage with them but I am becoming much more aware of my role. I am a guest everywhere I go, and I don’t allow myself to get stuck in one circle or way of thinking because I am here to build bridges between people, whatever the hell that means.
I need to be aware of this at all times because it’s so easy to get disteacted.
Call me a New Age Woo Woo Hippie if you want. I think I am finally done trying to manage how I am perceived by the world because I am not very good at it. The attempt to manage how people see me kept me safe, thats for sure, and maybe I needed that then, but whenever I fall into it now, it just holds me back.
These are the kind of thoughts I’ve been sharing for years relatively anonymously (with strangers) but I thought I’d try sharing them with people who I’ve met before (real life friends here) as an experiment more than anything else.
From this point on I will pay extra attention to whose framing I am using in a conversation, and remind myself that I am merely a visitor in their framing and that I do not benefit from taking on any residual ideas of lack, danger, or victimhood that pop into my consciousness.
Good day!
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That's the way friend, I feel you bud lols. Let the world know your insights and we will all benefit from the shared wisdom.
Much appreciated from the south coast of Africa.
South coast of Africa!! I thought you were Indian 😮
Hehehe 😆 I have adopted the Indian philosophy of Vedanta and studied it in my youth, which included visits to India. My alt account is @julianhorack. I was born and raised in Cape Town.
And then I wrote about mind body work and healing trauma through feeling, today ;<)
Solid! I’ll check it out!
Cheers buddy. In a way it's not ( entirely ) new(s) to me ( nor to you, I'm sure ) but I feel I'm getting closer to unlocking my powers and upping my health, once again.
I was thinking about this recently in regards to intellectual independence. If I listen to the same people I'll start leaning toward their ideas. It's best to decentralize right?
As far as the perception thing goes, it's a weird thing to do if you don't think like others. I'm a nerd. I love learning and I'm deeply fascinated by things people generally don't care about. Whenever I get excited and start firing this shit off I can see people tuning out. I'm always more surprised that there are people that view this stuff as a personal attack as if I'm only talking about certain topics because I want to parade around that I'm smarter than them or something. This is absolutely untrue, as I view everyone on this planet as my equal. I'm no better or more gifted than anyone else, just different.
I do perceive you as a hippy type, but that's fine. There's nothing wrong with that. The only advice that I'd ever offer for that type of person, is that there is a game to be played in the grand social structure of everything. If you don't play, you're choosing to lose. I only have come to realize this because I once too was heavily invested in the idea of breaking societal norms, but unless you're at the top of the food chain, this doesn't really work in your favor.
Most people can't stomach the variety of voices I pay attention to. From the deeply conspiratorial to the moderate or conservative to the most liberal of liberal to business-minded to anti-business minded and on and on, obviously the people that I feel know something or other.
I find that people tune out when they aren't able to see things (even with effort) that are blindingly obvious to someone else. I guess that comes from a different set of experiences or maybe more often from oversimplifying everything, cause that's what a lot of people do.
I understand where you are coming from on the danger of breaking societal norms. I am not really thinking on the win/lose paradigm but I do pay attention to resource availability and I like resources, so hopefully I'll be ok hahaha
Sorry for the slow reply....got that damn famous sickness again, that one with the 19 in it.
You're good. I've had it about 4 or 5 times now. Seems like it keeps getting easier.