The unknown fear

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One thing that's always affected me is fear. The word fear is a word that's too strong for me back in the past and till today, I have not really find my way out of it. Though, I have been trying my best to fight it with my faith, but still, I have not gotten there.

The fear of the unknown is one of those fear that has really affected me in life and this fear of the unknown has really led me to making wrong and rushed decisions.

There's decisions I took due to the fear of the unknown of what the future would be for me and aside that, what I will be eating or putting on when I graduated form the university. So, because of the anxieties of life, I jumped into taking wrong decision which till today I'm still not totally free from.

Let me share my little experience with us on this platform. Back then when I was about to leave the university, I had some amount of money which could be used to start a small business of my own. This said money was all I have laboured for in my early days on campus.

So, back then, I was not sure of what to do maybe to first go for my NYSC or start up a business as I have responsibilities to cater for. Though I have been taking care of this responsibilities since the demise of my mum, but with the help of some people who were always sending me stipends as a students back then, I was able to manage myself on campus and save a reasonable amount of money with the aim of starting up something with it to cater for myself, my younger brother and the entire family.

So, having this in my mind really made the fear of the unknown of how I would cope after my university degree and since people would no longer send me money as a student after my graduation, I believe I have to do something that would be fetching me daily income so as to meet up with my family daily demand and for this reason, I made enquiry about what to invest on.

In my quest to invest my money into a business with good return or turn over, I was faced with two options before me. One is gas refilling and the other one was selling of foodstuffs. So, when I critically looked into the two options before me, I opted for the foodstuff business which I believe would help me to meet my daily need as people would always eat everyday.

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So, out of fear of what would become of my life after my university, I chose to be a foodstuffs seller and it's even before I started it in full and having invested all I have saved into getting a shop in a good location at an expensive rate plus getting those goods into the shop that I went to a woman on our street who's into the business to make enquiry. When I got to her, she said, who advised me to venture into the business as the business is not meant for my kind of person.

Ab-initio, I thought this woman hated me and was jealous of my investments, but it's later and along the line that I got to know what she meant. Part of those things she told me was that, people would always come to buy on credit without paying and some other things that may affect me in the course of doing the business.

So, when I started the business in proper, all what the woman told me was what I met on the business field, but it's too late for me to make a U turn as I have already lost everything withing the space of 6 months of me starting the business and one thing that pained me was that, I couldn't even meet up with my expectation of taking care of myself and family which was the main reason of embarking on this business journey.

So, instead of me thriving in the business, I was totally plunged into debt and it's not easy for me at all. If not for the grace of God over my life, I would have lost my life in the process, but thank God I was able to settle my debt through the help of God and a friend who stood by me.

So, like I have said earlier, the fear of the unknown really caused me to take a wrong step and decision. Had it been I didn't allow this fear of the unknown to overwhelm me, I wouldn't have taken the wrong steps I took which later ran me aground. Maybe I would have even exercised patience. I waited till after my NYSC before starting up something. It's so painful and pathetic that I allowed the fear of the unknown to rule my life for me. The fear of the unknown is a serious thing and it should not be allowed to overwhelm us.

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