I really love these days.

I don't know why I feel so tired today. It seems that my mind is more tired than my body. Today I feel like I should leave everything and forget everything and go somewhere and spend some time. If I give myself some time, maybe I will be better. I want to be a little better. I want to give myself a little relief. Where I go, there will be no complaints, no arrogance, there will be deep trust in each other, no problems with calculations. But where can I go to that place? Where can I give myself a little relief? My life has become like this. I am completely tired of trying to sort out my messy life. Now I don't like anything anymore. I still thank you for everything.

I understand that I am not well. My physical and mental condition are not good. Still, I always try to be happy and smile in front of everyone. I always try to be nice to everyone. But sometimes some people do things to me that I never imagined. Then I just stare at them in surprise and wonder how this person could say this. So, it never makes sense to remind me. People these days are very selfish. The only thing that will change is the way they talk to you. There are many more colors inside people than there are colors in this world. You will never know when they will paint themselves with a new color and take on a new look.

I will say that as much as I have seen in my life, everyone is selfish, parents, brothers and sisters, relatives, everyone has interests, there is love, there is no interest, in the house of love, they think twice about setting fire. Why do they show so much interest? No one thinks about how long we will live in this world. Everyone thinks about another house. Another house is needed. Another house has to be built. Otherwise, how will it be with so much? What will happen if you leave everything? But you have to leave. You, I have come to this world for a few days. This world is not for us. We are only guests of this world. Many people do not want to believe these words. It does not matter to me whether someone believes them. I think that if I can be good myself, I can keep everyone good.

But people's behavior makes me understand that nowadays it is better to be alone because when you are going to be good with everyone, people will get a chance to hurt you. People will feel comfortable hurting you and this is what is happening with me. I am constantly trying to sort everything out and make it good again, but that good life is not happening. There is actually a big difference between being good and being good. Many people try but cannot do it and many people do not try but they are definitely good. Maybe the higher-ups have written this on their foreheads. I have read a lot of books in my life and memorized many books but I have not been able to do what is written on my forehead till date and I do not think I will ever be able to do it. There is a new lesson in every step of life. A new person must have taught you something new, but I will say this is the reality.

Usually, we think about a pen when the ink runs out, but we throw it in the dustbin and when it is full of ink, we take great care of it, some keep it in our chest pocket and some keep it next to our necessary things. Similarly, an umbrella is useful to everyone when it rains. When the rain stops, no one even thinks of looking for it. In the case of a person, the same thing happens nowadays. When people need you, you will see that they are treating you very well. You will feel that they are your only loved one. There can be no one more dear to you than you. But whenever their interests end, there is a sudden change in their behavior. The person who used to send ten SMS a day gradually stops at one SMS. Over time, it is seen that after a week or a month, an SMS is received from him. Then it is seen that years pass by whether you are alive or dead. After that, no one inquires anymore.

This is the reality. I am telling you from my real experience. Don't get too involved with people because when you get too involved with them, that person will start playing with you. When you share your feelings with them, that person will start hurting you with your feelings. Keep your troubles to yourself. There is no need to tell them to anyone because these days, people feel much more comfortable hitting your soft spots. Be good to everyone, do your own thing and don't hurt anyone.