Depression

Every day actually teaches us something. We make mistakes all the time. We should definitely learn from those mistakes. In fact, there are some things that we cannot do properly. We don't find the meaning of why we can't. We keep complaining about why it didn't happen. It may not be right to do that at all.

Morning
As usual, at five in the morning, I was awakened by the sound of the call to prayer all around me. I didn't have the strength to wake up. Even though I had a high fever, there was nothing I could do. I woke up and performed ablution and prayed. I sat quietly on the prayer mat for a while. I didn't feel anything, so I went and completed all the household chores. Then I made bread, fed my son bread and sent him to the madrasa.

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After he went to the madrasa, I came and started cooking. I slowly finished cooking and brought everything home. Then I went and wiped my body somehow, I didn't feel like taking a bath at all. Because I feel very cold. My son's body is not good, so I wiped his body too and poured water on his head. Then I came home and prayed Zuhr.

Afternoon
I lay quietly for a while, not wanting to eat. After my mother-in-law called me repeatedly, I got up and ate a small amount of rice. Then I lay down for a while, unable to sleep, my eyes were burning a lot.

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Then I entered the community, visited some posts, and commented on them. Then I wrote my own post and posted it. While I was doing all this, the call to prayer for Asr was given.

I got up and completed some household chores. And I performed the afternoon prayer. Then I left for the market with my son. Because if I don't bring medicine today, my health will get worse. I went to the market and went to the medicine shop. The doctor first measured my fever and found that it was very high. So the doctor gave me antibiotics.

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Night
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When I came home, I took my eldest son with me and brought some breakfast for them! When I got home, I gave them breakfast, they had their own breakfast; I lay down quietly, then I made my eldest son read, and he finished his handwriting by himself. Then there was some reading, I made him memorize it myself, and then I fed him rice.

I ate a small amount of rice at night and took the medicine first. My condition got worse after taking the antibiotic medicine. The fever went down a little but the chest pain got worse. Then I contacted the doctor again and the doctor said not to stress and it will be fine.

In fact, nothing feels good if our body is not good. My sons actually feel very bad for me. I can't stand their screaming. But even then I have to endure everything. Because I am a girl, I am a mother, I am a housewife. Anyway, my yesterday passed by in this way through annoyance. I wish you all good health from the Creator. Be well.

The pain had increased a lot, so I contacted the doctor again. The doctor said not to stress and it would be fine.

In fact, nothing feels good if our body is not good. My sons actually feel very bad for me. I can't stand their screaming. But even then I have to endure everything. Because I am a girl, I am a mother, I am a housewife. Anyway, my yesterday passed by in this way through annoyance. I wish you all good health from the Creator. Be well.