LOH- Contest #243. One Thing I Would Love to Change About Myself

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If I could change one thing about myself, it would be my shyness. I have lived with it for as long as I can remember. Now at 20, I thought I would have outgrown it, but it seems to have grown with me. Shyness, paired with a persistent feeling of inferiority, has been a constant weight on my personality. It makes me question my worth in spaces where I should feel comfortable, and it has formed an invisible wall between me and the rest of the world.

This internal struggle has affected almost every aspect of my life. Being introverted isn’t necessarily a flaw, I enjoy solitude and I value deep conversations over shallow small talk. But when shyness and inferiority complex mix with my introversion, it becomes isolating. I tend to overthink everything: how I talk, how I look, how I behave. I second-guess my words even before I say them. And when I do speak, it’s often with a trembling voice and unsure eyes. As a result, my circle is very small not because I want it that way, but because I don’t know how to expand it.


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Social gatherings make me anxious. I avoid events that require interaction with unfamiliar faces. I’m constantly worried about not being “good enough", not smart enough, not confident enough, not interesting enough. In group settings, I often remain silent, watching others with ease and wishing I could be like them. This has cost me opportunities both personal and professional. I’ve missed chances to make friends, to speak up in class, to network, to shine. The feeling of being “unexposed” haunts me. While others seem to evolve, I feel stuck, confined by self-doubt and fear of judgment.

It’s not that I don’t have dreams or ambitions, I do. I want to be confident. I want to walk into a room and not feel like I don’t belong. I want to be able to introduce myself without rehearsing it a hundred times in my head. I want to build connections, share ideas, and make memories with people I haven’t met yet. But to do all that, I have to fight the quiet voice in my head that constantly whispers, You’re not enough.

Changing this part of me would mean more than just being able to socialize, it would mean freedom. Freedom to express, to connect, to grow. I know it won’t happen overnight, and maybe I’ll never be the loudest in the room. But I hope to reach a point where I no longer shrink myself to fit into corners. Where I don’t let fear dictate my steps. I believe we all deserve to take up space, to feel seen, heard, and valued. And if there’s one change I truly wish for myself, it’s to finally start believing that I do too.

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Hello darling 💕 I understand everything you wrote, I have been there, but I have work on myself, like you said change won't come overnight but it will definitely come. Believe in yourself. Much love 💕

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I pray it comes. It's my most fervent prayer.
Thank you very much my lady for this heart warming comment, and assurance.

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Everyone has things that they don't like about of course, and I do wish that you can be more confident. Stay positive, ignore that annoying voice in your head. Believe that you are enough and wonderful because people who are worth socializing are the ones who see you behind the cover. !LADY

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Thank you very much My Lady for this encouragement. I believe your wish for me will come through as I stay positive as you've instructed.
Thank you!

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I think everybody at one time or another feels this way with varying degrees. I know I did. I was seriously shy. It was at work (I was in my mid thirties when this happened) when my manager realized just how shy I was and inadvertently forced me 'out of my shyness' by purposely putting me in a position where I had to run the daily meeting for the entire store. It wasn't easy, but it helped me to overcome.

You will grow; you are worth absolutely everything! Never forget that! You have something that somebody needs to hear-never doubt that for a minute!

Thank you for sharing and have a lovely day!

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Oh My Lady, must say, this part of yours has given me great assurance to overcome this just as you did. I just need to be intentional about it.

Thanks very much My Lady, I appreciate

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I can relate with your point here because I'm in the same boat with you. At times it is very difficult to interact with people in a gathering that the faces are not familiar. Thank you for sharing.

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That's very true my dear...
You are welcome

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We all have shyness has part of us, it's just that some of us worked on it.
And I know you can work on it, try self affirmation and ask a close friend to help you work on it.
Always remember you are enough.

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Thanks so much my Lady, I'll apply your instructions accordingly

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