will I be able to free myself from this fear ?

Overtime, i assumes that, fear make me who I am, but they are times where I will be sitting alone and be fighting with the demons that wants to put confusion on my mind.

That apart, it is not doubting that there are a lot of people looking up to me, and to be precise, it is the way life is play, the elder persons in a family should pave a way for the ones coming at their back.

Therefore, my greatest fear is to be capable and not to failed them, myself Included and aslo my friends and relatives, this is what I think of mostly in my mind, even while I still continuing doing what is possible, praying and hoping for a dream come true, so that I smile and my people will be joyful too.

This doesn't means we do not smile all these while, we do, and if not for anything, for life, for continuous blessings and for daily bread, when there's life, there is fat hope of getting whatever dreams we have for ourself to come to pass.

Like it took place few months ago, when my nephew called me and reminds of the items I promised to buy for him, the deal was, I didn't see it as a necessity anymore, but i have already promised him and I did not want to failed him, so i continue letting him know that i still remembers it and I will do as said.

After the call i thought about how he is going to feel, maybe, if i failed to buy for him the item I promised, something about children is that, they can easily forget about other things, but when it comes to promise, they do not easily forget about it, all the promises people said to them are on their minds.

Because at that stage of their life, they know that, people have to do somethings for them, and theirs is just to play and make noises all over the environment, if someone do not tell them to stop the noise.

Most of the times, I like sitting alone and checking on the things I have done, so that I will determine, if I am making progress a bit, and there was a day, my nephew came and told me when he grow up, he will want to have a lot of money.

I asked him "why, will he want a lot of money" he go on that, it is because he wouldn't want to failed his family or friends, who might want his help.

And he can understands it from itself, because he felt really bad when someone promised him something and can not do as was said, but keep on postponing it, i was surprised that he could point out where the issues was coming from.

What is the fear you have, is it the same like mine, or it is a different thing, how are you fighting it ?

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