Unattainable Desires
Something that has gone extinct is impossible to bring back into your life, it could be an animal, a person, a product, or even a way of life. But if we have a chance or could is possible to bring it back, then it will be mesmerizing than we ever thought. When we lose a thing that has a great impact on our life, then we can understand the importance of that specific thing that we didn’t take seriously when it was present. It means absence teaches us the importance of everything, and makes us feel more precious after losing that. All of us always go through this type of imagination frequently, while losing a thing which was more important for any individual than being bothered or missing that all the time whenever it comes to remembering with an uncautious mind. Sometimes it feels guilty, sometimes it feels blank, as if something is incomplete. An individual is always trying to rectify the previous faults, misleadings in their subconscious mind. And always feels that if he could get a chance to get it back into his life, then everything could be settled, which was incomplete or missing at the previous time. But which already extinct can never be able to bring it back into our life, once it’s gone, then gone forever and never come back again is true. We are human, always trying to imagine, always have to think it could be, it may be, sometimes we could also think as a miracle. In some cases, we think that we are in a daydream or inside a nightmare. After waking up, everything is settled down in our life as we wish to see it happen or according to our wishes. In short, we can mean it is human nature. All of us are going through this phase, I’m not out of that.
I lost my father at the age of 13. My father had suffered from liver cirrhosis, and I was too young to understand anything about that illness and the treatment of that type of disease. I was a school-going boy, always loved to play. I was fond of playing, and after coming back from school always fell into play, never worried about anything, nor even thinking about other family responsibilities. We are four brothers, and I was the first and eldest child of my parents. My father loved me a lot, and he was always proud of me, as I was a good student and good at play. My father always helped me with my studies, even encouraged me the play, sometimes he played with me, like football, badminton, after returning from his job. He was a great man, a great father, a great son to his parent, a great brother to his siblings, and also a great person to his relatives and our neighbors. I’m not praising nor exaggerating his virtues, as he was my father, and he was at his best himself. Moon has some blackspot after having been beautiful, but my father has no spots; he was an honest, gentle, humble, and wise person. I had never thought or imagined that my father could die from that disease or something else. After his death, I was traumatized. I thought I was in a nightmare. After waking up, I could see my father alive and present in our lives, even today, I think like that. I never to able came back from that imagination. Now I’m at 50, at this age, I miss my father a lot every time, in every moment.
If I could bring my father back into my life, then it could be better than entering heaven. I’ll be the happiest man in the world; nothing can be better than my father’s return to my life. If I get my father back, then I’ll take care of his health and never leave him alone. My daughters, who had never seen my father, could see their grandfather and enjoy the most beautiful time with my father. My father had a hidden wish for a daughter, however, we had no sister. My daughter will get the best grandfather and his love, which has no limits or boundaries. After getting my father back in my life, I’ll try to rectify my faults and the negligence that I had done in previous past to my father. And never disappoint him anymore, will try to fulfill his wishes, and always obey him without making any mistakes. I would try to make him proud of me, and will enjoy each moment, and not wish to lose him anymore. And I believe that my father’s return to my life will change my entire life in every positive way, and nothing can better this. My life will be changed forever, and I’ve no wishes besides that. I know it could never happen, nor will it happen in the future in my life, but I really wish to bring my father back into my life, and I’ll always wish this wish till my death.