The Act of Not Giving a...

Whenever I go out with my friends, most especially at night to parties, they always end up talking about the guys who spent the most money, bought the most expensive drinks or had the best clothes on, and everytime I hear them talk about this things, I always struggle to remember anything of such about that night. So I would always tell them that I had no idea any of that happened and then they would go ahead to tell me in details how someone spent a lot of money on something and how they wished it was them and all that.

Basically, whenever they bring up conversations like that after a night out, it's mostly just them being kinda envious (probably in a good way) of someone else who spent a whole lot of money that night. And normally, I wouldn't have a problem with them being this way but then it started to really affect them whenever we had to go out at night because the envy became consistent..again, probably for a good reason because they weren't angry that someone they didn't know was spending all of that money, they were upset with themselves that they didn't have the money to spend.

_{photo by Megan Watson}

But surprisingly, I never really had a problem with any of that, neither did I pay any attention to anyone spending money. And at first I didn't know why it was that way, but after a conversation I had with a friend of mine on WhatsApp today, I began to realize that the reason why I don't feel the same way as my friends in situations like this, is probably because I don't really care...I focus on what I have, what I can afford and that's it.

Earlier today a friend of mine had texted me, we both attended the same high school and university so I asked him if he had any plans to travel back home, to our former street to maybe see some friends, seeing how I was no longer traveling. And he had made a comment about how he has no plans of ever returning to our former street simply because he feels like every kid he grew up with there will be doing very well by now, seeing how internet fraud is now rampant.

The moment he mentioned Internet rampant, I had hissed without even knowing it and this is because he was making sense until he wasn't. I couldn't believe that the most important reason why he's choosing to forget all about his childhood friends is simply because the majority of them were now fraudsters and he wasn't.

Personally, I've come to realize that I have this mindset that the moment I realize you got your money illegally, then there's nothing to be envious about because you're literally living on borrowed time and could go to jail any minute (although the police system over here doesn't work that great).

I always tell myself that as a way to keep myself in check and not get deceived into doing what these guys are doing nowadays. It's a system that has worked for me for years now, even when I was surrounded by fraudsters, and hopefully, it will keep on working for me for many more years to come.