Trusting Yourself Is Trusting Life
It's sort of funny. I have been preparing for this weird time on Earth for the better part of 20 years, and now that it's here I am a bit dumbfounded.
I have suffered immensely knowing stuff that people around me were able to ignore because everything in the external seemed "normal and in order" to them. I did not always know it! We started out from the same place, but somehow I did not feel satisfied with the superficial explanations.
Just like a child you know? You always keep asking "why", until your parents roll their eyes. That's the way human beings are meant to be. But it is trained out of us.
The facade was intact enough to be disregarded as a problem by those around me. Their system faith covered the few cracks and minute fractures that drove me into deeper and deeper rabbit holes for years on end. I must have changed my basic premise for life on Earth and what this place is a good half a dozen times or so. And then THAT led to a new working theory, which is the one I still operate under: Everything is probabilities and nobody knows the full truth. In some places, some of the findings connect if we can only break through the fenced off areas of inquiry and trust in ourselves more than in others.
We can piece it together because we are immensely powerful beings. We just forgot, or on some level chose to forget.
Sometimes I thought I had wasted years of my life, now I feel somewhat vindicated because I can better prepare for what is coming. I have done my homework and practiced basic "transitionish" where so many others are surprised to hear they are now put on a boat to a new destination they had never considered to be in store for them.
It is decision time kids! And it will continuously be so for the next decade or so. Make your choice.
The rot at the system's core did not become apparent to most, only to those who trusted their own discernment, logic and intuition. And that trend continues, only now we are more numerous and the outgrowth of the system's criminal nature has made its rounds to reach more and more eyes and ears. Epic win for humanity's consciousness!
Throwing out falsities and uncovering giant lies has freed me to an immense degree. But at the end of the day I still feel like I am sharing the boat with a slow and numb majority. I hope I am wrong on it. But there is only so much one can prepare. Feels like the times are fast approaching where we need to build tribes that go beyond casual friendships or hobbies. We need to team up with people who have likewise done their homework.
The best way I found to find a path in the storm is to fundamentally trust the universe and life. People have called it god. An intelligence beyond any of our individual's.
An intelligence that includes all other intelligences, the intelligence that makes natural networks work in symbiosis and balanced systems, in ways we humans still fail miserably to comprehend. Which is fine, we don't need to understand it all. We just need to get with it.
Now that dramatic time on the world stage has arrived, it is finally here. And all I can do is trust that the universe will get me to where I need to be. To show me where I need to go, whom to meet and what position to be in.
The logical conclusion - if that is indeed my operating assumption - is that I AM already there. Here is where I need to be because I am. Psychonauts will understand this perfectly!
I am armed with knowledge. I have developed tremendous skills, and gathered immense experience in all sorts of areas. I am ready to live autonomously anywhere life puts me. At the same time, ties to the system have been reduced so drastically that debt does not worry me. There is no debt in my life which I am so grateful for.
So how to make it through this turmoil? Find your trust in god. If you can't or won't, find trust in a greater mind than your own. No other HUMAN's mind, but the mind of nature or reality itself. The time for blindly trusting other humans is over. It got us into this mess in the first place.
Get rid of all clinging to old narratives that are and have been thoroughly debunked but have not yet reached your ear and intellect. Maybe you weren't ready. Maybe you are now. Maybe you can leave your fervor behind you and instead try your best to comprehend what others are saying without instantly judging them from your current frame of reference. It's a lifelong task for us, because we come from a judging system that has shaped us immensely.
Smart people sound like dumb people to ignorant people.
Pressure is amping up and so it is now in our capacity to consider more than ever: not some of what we have been taught was a lie... but pretty much all of it!