External validation.

  External validation 

I know people but not like everyone.
I know little of anyone.
I know myself.

I don't know anyone.
Even if I know anyone.
It is brief and valuable to someone.

But knowing myself is for sure.
I don't want to harm anyone surely.
I don't want to hate anyone surely.

I rather let you be.
Than to let myself be.

But if I doubt myself.
And go ask people about myself.

Everyone will tell me what they know about me.
Everyone will tell me what they feel about me.

Everyone will tell me what they think I am.
Which may be the right and wrong about who I am.

So, I don't see myself again from outside.
I don't want to know what is going on outside.

The image they create is called characterization.
Not the image of the character in the notion.

I know myself secretly.
I know myself openly.

So I will not be confused about their projection.
So I will be convinced of my projection.

If they say it is my illusion.
So be it. Who cares.
If they say it is my hallucination.
So be it. Who cares.

As it is my life, not theirs.
As it is my way, not theirs.

As I am the character in notion.
Not their character in characterization.

So, external validation hinders me.
So internal validation surrenders to me.

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