The Reality of Making a Decision between Love and Life long health Burden

One of The Hardest Decision of My Life would be Canceling My own Wedding, it's going to be a very traumatic experience. Right now I am still trying to process that mix of emotions that will be flooding me from left to the right, when I am about to make the toughest decision of my life: calling off my wedding

But here's the Reason behind calling of My wedding after finding out Me and my Fiancé both are sickle cell, First note that it wasn't a decision rooted in lack of love or trust. Of course it was quite the opposite. It was about love, responsibility, and the unborn children we had dreams of having. I really am to blame for this mess I am in, this is because me and my fiance has been together for so long a time that, we were supposed to have checked our Genotype. But due to a very unbelievable negligence on my path.

After both of us got aware of our Genotype,
At first, it did not seem like a big deal for us, We both thought, Maybe we can manage it, But then reality hits me like a ton of bricks. Which is that There’s a chance our children could inherit two sickle cell genes (SS) and suffer from the full-blown condition. This is a lifelong issue, I don't want any of my unborn children to suffer a condition that shouldn't be there.

Sometimes we need to take some drastic decisions in Life but after watching several documentaries on the sickle cell issue, after seeing several real life examples, after many explanations from the doctors, reading studies, and joining sickle cell support groups.
What I learned was heartbreaking and Sad. Sickle cell disease is not just about occasional pain crises or a one time kind of situation; instead it is about lifelong hospital visits (Frequent), unpredictable health complications, and the knowledge that your child’s life could be marked by pain and limitations.
So I imagined what it would be like for my child to miss school severally during the time He will be sick, or times which we are to worry about them getting infections that could turn deadly, or to see them struggle with simple things most kids around Him take for granted. And then I thought about this, and I said Loudly: this is not the kind of Life I want for my Kids.

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