I Cried, But I Didn't Give Up.

Good day, people of Hive! Welcome to my blog. Today's topic is from Midnight letters which says:Write a Love Poem for the night. So let's dive in.

Honestly, this is my first time writing in this midnight community and I'm happy and glad to participate on this week topic.

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I Cried, But I Didn’t Give Up

School has its own problem,
Project has its own stress,
Life too has its own wahala,
And honestly… I’m tired.

Sometimes I wake up smiling,
But deep inside I’m not okay,
Because the weight on my chest
Doesn’t go away.

I try my best every day,
But it still feels like I’m failing,
Like no matter how hard I try,
Something is always shaking.

There are days I feel fed up,
Like I just want to disappear,
So I find a quiet place,
Where nobody will hear.

And there, I cry to God,
Not because I’m weak,
But because He’s the only One
That understands my heart when I can’t speak.

I tell Him, “Lord I’m tired,
Please give me strength again.”
Because I know He can carry me
Even when I can’t carry my pain.

Sometimes my mind brings bad thoughts,
Things I shouldn’t even do,
But I quickly remember God
And I know what is true.

So yes, I may cry sometimes,
And yes, I may feel weak,
But with God, I will stand again,
Because He is all I need.

It’s not easy, I won’t lie,
But I will not lose my way,
Because with God all things are possible,
And I believe that every day.

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What this poem is talking about is how hard life has been so hard for me. Sometimes I don't even know how to explain it, because it feels like the struggle is just coming with force without stopping. School on it's own is stressful with going to school early in the morning for lectures, assignments, presentations, etc and coming back late in the evening. Project is also stressful because our supervisor will disturbs and stress us for our project, before they accept them and life itself has it's own struggle. I try my best everyday, I keep pushing myself, encouraging myself, keep moving, but sometimes it felt like I'm not doing enough.

There are days I get so fed up and tired, not just physical alone but emotional. I may look fine on the outside sometimes by smiling, laughing and joking, but inside I'm really breaking down. There are some moments I just want to be alone,away from everybody, so I look for a quiet place where no one is around or even stay in my room and I break down. I cry to God because deep down, I know He is the only one I can run to without fear, shame or pretend because He knows all what I'm facing. I pour everything out to Him because I believe He is the only one that can relieve me from all my struggles, pains and strengthen me to face whatever comes my way.

Sometimes, when things get too much for me, I won't lie.. my mind start bringing thoughts that can lead me away from God's will. Thought of doing something I know I shouldn't do and later regret it all rest of my life. But each time those thoughts come, something always pull me back and that's God's word. I always remember my three most favourite Bible verses and they calm my heart again

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Jeremiah 32 vs 27 says: I am the Lord, the God of all the people of the world. Is anything too hard for me? This verse reminds me that no matter how impossible my situation look, God is still in control.

Isaiah 41 vs 10 says:- Don't be afraid for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. This verse remind me not to be afraid because God is with me and He will strengthen me and help me.

Jeremiah 29 vs 11 says: For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. This verse remind me that God's plans for me are good.

Anytime I remember these three verses, its always rises my faith and hope again. I regain my strength, my hope and remember that this struggle is not everlasting.

In conclusion, I know it's not easy, and I won't pretend everything is good. But I strongly believe that with God, all things are possible. As long as I keep trusting Him and holding on to my faith, He will help me through it all. Because God's plan will always different from my own plans, no matter how painful the struggle is, His plans are always the best.

This is my entry for the Midnight Letters Prompt #16.

Thanks for reading💞💞💞💞💞.

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This post was published at 2:11 Am today.