Times of Red, White and Green

A lot has happened in the past week. A lot of things that have made me understand just how much power we yield, just by believing. Sometime ago, I wrote about how I’d been preparing for a defense in school, and because I was trying to change the mindset that things like that rarely ended blissfully for me, I also wrote about how I wanted that defense to go. I wrote it, and I believed without doubt that it was all going to work out.

The D-day came and having prepared, I was excited to finally have it come. I defended, and smiled throughout the day. Exiting the lab, all I could feel was bliss. I was blissful that I didn’t for once worry during my preparations, or allow the past weigh me down, as that would have been a hindrance. I was grateful that things all worked out. I was grateful that I didn’t even need to do too much, to win that day. Put simply, I was fillled with gratitude.

The year is coming to an end already and most times, there is an increased urge to do something with our lives. In past years, if I wasn’t busy planning resolutions for the new year, I was being worried about not having achieved everything I had planned out, or worse still, I’m sourcing for events, outfits, finances to go on my dream outings and other things associated with the season. However, things are different this time around. This season is going to be filled with less worry, and more gratitude. This season, rather than worry about everything I have no control over, I’m simply going to let things be, hope for the best, and continue to be grateful for everything I have.

Anxiety, has been one of my traits I’ve been working hard on. For everything that hasn’t happened yet, my mind starts running helter skelter, wondering how that thing was going to work. I worry about every little detail, wanting to make sure the future comes out perfectly. I keep stressing, thinking about how to make possibilities perfect. Forgetting that possibilities aren’t static, and there is no guarantee of perfection.

Keeping worry aside, I’ve begun to practice gratitude. Being grateful to the point that I’m not bothered by things I do not have, but rather, being content with what I have, without letting the fear or greed associated with wanting more, influence my peace. I love how I’ve been feeling these past few days, and I’m grateful for the opportunity to experience this. In this new season, I look forward to giving gratitude and worrying less. Worry never gets the job done, so why even entertain it in the first place?

This season is characterized by the pressure to ensure your time is spent memorably. It’s characterized by the pressure to ensure one is able to enjoy this like it’s his or her last without any limitations. I caught myself making plans, wondering where I needed to start saving, my mode of transport, outfit for such outings, and all those stressful details associated with festive events. That was when it dawned on me, that I was beginning to let worry take over. I was starting to focus on a situation i had no control over. However, While all this is going on, I choose to simply sit down, relax and let nature take its course.

Thanks for reading.

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