Chaotic Peace

Having spent a series of weeks in this school, since resumption, everything has been filled with one hectic requirement to the other. I'm not by any means lamenting because I've already begun to adapt once again to life in this place after a long holiday spent spent and assigned to me by me😂

For the past few days, I literally found myself in a hole, surrounded by inner-me. A hole where chaotic peace existed. Chaotic peace, a term I derived for a situation where I shut myself out from the outside world and revel in a world where my thoughts rule and just me and my inner self exists. Although, it seems peaceful to be in a world of your own, it becomes quite the opposite when you are ruled by your subconscious and have a lot going on. I've really had a lot going on in the past few days. From having a fallout with a friend, to the stress involved in schooling, to things not panning out as I had planned, I realized I was in a state of emotional distress.

Adding to it, was also the issue of electricity the school is having recently. Rumours have it that there will be a 14days power outage in the school environment. The reason remains unknown to us. The only source of power being generators and solar energy. Although, we're about 5 days into it already, I can't wait for the 9 days left to be over. That feeling when all your devices get to charge and yet, there is still electricity overflowing, A sublime feeling! At the point of this post, I have all my devices low. My phone being the only device that still had power left in it. I started making this post with a battery power of 20, and luckily, I was able to complete it for you dear reader. This lack of power for the past few days has reduced my consistency on all social media outlets, coupled with the state I was in emotionally. I found it hard keeping up with that consistency I had promised myself here. I would try my best to be more consistent no matter what.

At this point, as I try to haul myself out from this hole I subjected myself to, all we have to keep doing is to hope. Hope for better things. Hope for more positive achievements. I'm using this as a form of encouragement to you, and also, to myself. Hope for the things yet to come, the future to come, tomorrow and beyond.

Header image was taken by me