Never To Late For My Life Transformation
Have a nice day @ecotrain!
I thinks transformation is not easy to do when you are sorrounded by negative people. Instead of being distracted, let us use their negativity a source of wider understanding. We could not see and learn a lesson if there is no negative along the way. How to determine the difference between them if all are perfect? Are you sure it's a perfect situation without passing the test of life?
For a very long time, I was a woman without trust to myself. I had no self confidence and I never appreciate my talent, my beauty, my brain and even our family status. As if , I thought of we were the unlucky person with my family on earth. It happened because that was I always heard from my mother. I couldn't blame my mother because she got married too young and she based out life by her experienced. All matters were negative even in my studies, I was an honor pupil in our class but she never appreciated it. She told me that all were useless and it will just turned into getting married too young like her.
Despite of her negativity and the way she up brought us, I kept on going to school with many absences. She let me took care of my siblings during school days when they were out from home seeking for our foods and daily needs. I understood the situation. Who would give us food if they didn't do an errand so I didn't go to school and maybe it was also three days in one week I was attending classes.
To make the story short, I reached in 2 years in college but she sent me to another place to work after our house was burned. She want me to earn money to help them built our new home. The plan was I will work during the day and go to school at night but I was sexually abused and I decided getting married. I was so afraid of getting pregnant without a father of my child. My grandma told me that who got your virginity would be your husband to avoid family trouble soon. I forgot my dream to becomes a teacher and I just realized that maybe it was the fruit of my mother's negativity. Or else it was my destiny. Whatever it was, I accepted that I got married too early at 17 like my mother who got married at 15 years old.
For a very long run in my life, I passed so many ups and downs. Many mountains I walked with but thanks God He was always there to guide me. Being a simple woman, a mother of one son and a widow at 34 years old. Still , I had no self esteem.
When I Got the Courage of my Transformation?
It was all began when, I was forced to joining Steemit that brought me here in hive. It gave me a wider transformation in all aspects of my life. It was 2017 December when a friend forced me. I refused because I was already 47 years old and I forgot about building words to a sentences and paragraph. Forgot how to used correct grammar but it was never too late...
Later on, I met some friends, a virtual friends who supported me and understood who I was. They taught me many things and corrected my writings. That was the biggest transformation that I did and put where I am now in blogging.I learned a lot and it's not only about learning but it gave me passive income to earned. What the best part of being a writer or a blogger, it enabled me to help people whom I never knew in person and I found real friends not even seeing each other.
Then, another part of the big transformation was seeing myself had a little potential and I saw my beauty in the mirror everytime I made a selfie. I was not even had time looking in the mirror to see myself. I was too busy. Then, when I was in Steemit then to hive now, some people said I looked beautiful in and out. It melted my heart why I didn't appreciated the gift of God He gave to me.
Now, I felt better, I beat fears and failures in life with my faith in God. I know my worth being a simple woman with brave heart tackling every day endeavor of my life. I am still an Overseas Filipino Worker at 55 years old but my heart became younger than before. I kept my health fit and always taking my time in the doctor. I don't want to waste my life for nothing and thinking all the negative aspects.
I am now a better person than before, a braver version of me and I think it's never too late at my age for many more transformation coming along my way. I trust the Divine Process of God to me before and until now.
What Stopping Me?
I felt numbness everytime I cried thinking all the negative happening into my life. I considered everything as my destiny. Instead of thinking the worst, I tried to do to have a good fight and able to win and I did it many times. I am tested and I have so many proof of how I got it right.
That's all about my transformation. Thank you @ecotrain . Maybe it's already late entry* supposed to write yesterday but I was too busy so I made it now at dawn.