We’re All Struggling: What’s Hitting You the Hardest?

Most days I get people asking me how I’m this confident because I never shy away from anything. I just laugh and wonder if this is what people see because I’m a very shy person with a lot of anxiety on most days. But this doesn’t mean I should prevent myself of what I truly deserve or want. So, what I do is put all the shyness and anxiety away and go get it.

One thing I’ve come to learn over the years is that, everything you worry about or are anxious about is going to either happen or not happen so why the worry. It’s just all in our heads and once we keep feeding it, it’s going to eat us up. I never in my life thought I’d come this far. I didn’t think I could get out of my shell, do big things, climb big stages, be adventurous, take risks and many more. But when I look back today, I’ve done it all and then some more. Whew. Amazing right?

Speaking of anxiety, I used to be a chronic over-thinker some years back which gave me a lot of anxiety but i made a mental note to not worry about the things I can’t control and I’ve been working diligently towards that. Today, I can say I’m a 10% over thinker compared to the 100% over thinker I was years ago. I wouldn’t say I worry or overthink anything these days but there’s always those stuff that always pop up into your mind and get you worried all of a sudden. We all experience that and I’m no exception.

If there’s one thing that gives me anxiety and sleepless night, it’s an upcoming event which I so much look forward to because it’s either going to be a stepping stone for me and my team or not. So, my team and I have been working on this project for so long. Working day and night with no off days, investing money, sweat, time and everything we have. It’s been a rough year for us and we are hoping to meet our turning point soon enough as we hope to secure some funding to scale up.

We have been looking forward to the month of May for so long and my body just shivers by the thought of the D-day. But the good thing is, I’m not really bothered about the outcome because I know we are going to sail through. But then again , we always have to prepare for the worst. Now, this is what gets me thinking all the time. After investing so much in our project, what if people pay their way out ? What if we are missing something or not doing something the right way. This has kept me on my toes till date, always looking out for what we might have missed, what to change or adjust and so on. We have made a lot of progress so far but we could actually do a lot better with this finding opportunity.

So yeah, it’s a good form of anxiety if you ask me because it’s a step towards the right direction. Hopefully, I’m able to come back with good news.

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