Broken, But Built Stronger

Everyone loves to win and no one loves to fail, that’s life for you. The feeling of failure is terrible and terrifying and not everyone handles it well. I wouldn’t say I handle failure very well from my experiences. A friend sent me a YouTube video a while back and it made me understand a whole lot as I was able to relate with it.

The whole conversation that led to me getting in touch with this video was centred around growth, failure and how to grow while handling everything with a sane mind. From this video, I came to understand that for someone who’s smart and always makes the top grades and wins at everything, failure can crush them down so badly because they least expected it.

I grew up topping my class from day one. I always had positive competition and that fuelled me more. I was always receiving the awards, the praises and what have you. And so it all felt normal to me. And so, when I failed at something I thought I was very good at somewhere last year, it almost drove me insane. This was something I could achieve even with my eyes closed because it’s been my thing for years. But here I was, not being able to meet the standards.

I couldn’t sleep for days, and days turned to weeks and then,to a whole month. I could stay up all night thinking about what I did wrong or what I missed. Maybe they just didn’t like me, or maybe the system was rigged. But I wasn’t one to blame others. So now, I stood between either giving up or giving it another shot. Giving up sounded like the best choice in that situation.

But I’m not one to give up because I just don’t up and give up over a minor but major setback. So, I started to plan. What to do, where to start from, who to talk to , what books to read and a whole lot. Eventually I found myself somewhere because I decided to start from somewhere. It wasn’t easy. I was always the leader in almost everything I did. I was the face and the brain behind most things. But I had to learn to let others fill some spots. One thing I learnt from this setback and new story of mine is that you don’t always have to be in the limelight. Sometimes you need to be in the background, pushing the limits, meeting the targets and pushing your brand.

After all, failure wasn’t the end of it for me but rather just the beginning….the beginning of something new, a new chapter, a new dimension, direction and energy. But I don’t wish for failure, not now, not ever. And even if it comes to my doorstep I know I will face it!

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