Becoming a new and better woman

Hello dear friends, it is a great pleasure for me to write for the first time in this community, I hope it will be the first of many. This time I will tell you about my transformation when I became a mother. Many times, I had heard about how a woman suffers changes when she becomes a mother, however, I never took it seriously because I thought that I would not have the privilege of being a mother, scientifically I had a 1% chance. When that 1% chance began to grow inside of me I tried to enjoy as much as I could this stage that I longed for so much.

When my baby was born everything around me felt strange, my friends, my favorite places, my hobbies, I could no longer have them, a baby requires that you give a lot of yourself, so as the days go by you no longer recognize yourself, you no longer recognize you, you became another person, one that you do not even like very well. It may be funny but sometimes you can't even stand yourself, you are so focused on what you were or what you can do that you live in a constant struggle with yourself.

Until one day after a lot of thinking and criticizing yourself for what you can't do, you start to see everything with different eyes, it doesn't matter so much to go out and share with old friends, neither to go shopping and your favorite hobby becomes watching your baby smile, even watching him sleep. So after a constant struggle with yourself about a year after having your baby you find yourself, you enjoy the little things, a simple meal, a moment alone with your thoughts makes you feel renewed and a nap next to that little boy or girl becomes the most relaxing thing you can have.

After some time I understood that the things I considered important for my child, like buying new clothes and shoes, or new toys to make him feel loved, are not so important. I can say that I have almost never bought clothes for my son, friends and relatives have always given me the ones that belonged to their children and I accept them with love, because the best life I can give my son is not one full of luxuries, of buying brand name things, the best thing is to have his mother present showing her love with every gesture, with every detail and with every word.

My time is no longer mine, I can say that my priorities have changed, I even laugh when I think how my son is always clean, combined and well groomed, but I do not have time to do what I did before, go to the hairdresser, do my nails, my hair, maybe other moms may think that I am exaggerating when I mention the lack of time, but since I am a mom I feel that I prefer to spend that time doing something with my son, reading a good book while he sleeps or just watching him in silence while he does it. So I just became simpler, calmer, I feel at peace, a peace that I had a hard time getting, that I found only when I understood that it was not bad to change.

If someone asked me now if I am happier than before, I would answer without a doubt yes, it was a process of learning and getting to know myself but the result is that I enjoy more the little things, the small details that I didn't know how to appreciate before. I never thought that being a mom I would gain so much, I became a new and better woman, one that I learned to love, one that sometimes gets tired and sometimes worries, but what I enjoy most in life is the simplicity of a smile.

Thank you for reading me, I will be attentive to your comments.