Law of Attraction | And My Attraction To It

I am a Christian who kept God at arm's length but professed that I loved him by attending Sunday church. I wanted to learn more about Christianity, spirituality, and religion from any source but the Bible. I have no clue why, but that is how it was. And then I found Esther and Jerry Hicks – the life-changing duo talking to the spiritual realm.

I think the first book I read was Money and the Law of Attraction, and thereafter, many more books and YouTube videos. They seemed like a nice couple, and they made so much sense. In fact, the most obvious reason for my attraction to the law of attraction was the tagline “Ask and It Is Given”. Not only was that a tagline, but also a book from Esther and Jerry. This was definitely from the Bible, and so, the Law of Attraction was in line with the Bible. Or so I thought.

I totally believed that I hit the jackpot. The fact that I could create my future was so liberating that I thought I did not require anyone anymore. I guess I thought that way about God, too.

But I consciously overrode some tingles and red flags when I first started with Esther and Jerry Hicks. What were they? Let’s take a look.

What Were Those Tingles? | What Was It That Told Me To Be Cautious?

When I first started reading the book, I read the preface, which explained how Esther and Jerry Hicks got where they were and how they discovered Abraham. They used an Ouija board and tried Tarot cards. Both were red flags in the Christian scheme of things. We can argue that they are just a game and available even in a general store, but isn’t that exactly how demons enter our lives?

“It’s ok. It’s not serious at all. You are reading too much into it.” That’s exactly what I told myself. So, I quickly swept it under the carpet and kept reading. The second instance was Esther’s discovery of Abraham. The immediate question in my head was, how did Esther know that this was a good spirit? I don’t know where the question popped from, but now that I am closer to the Bible, the Bible in fact warns against talking to spirits. Spirits take a noble form (I mean, evil spirits) to appear god sent. 2 Corinthians 11:14 states that “Even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light”.

But I was too naïve to accept the warnings. Besides, Esther said that she felt elated, the first time she felt Abraham. So, I thought things should be good. But the third tingle that I missed was that Abraham was not a single spiritual entity but a group of entities. Ever heard of the name “legion”?

And remember God sent angels are singular, whether it is angel Gabriel or any other angel. They are not many. But still, I went against my good sense. I thought, God showed me this book, so there must be a reason for me to read it. In hindsight, God did have a reason, but just not what I thought.

There Were Problems Beyond the Origin Story | I Just Could Not Grasp It At That Time

One of the main points of contention in my head was that we had to do the simplest work of aligning ourselves with the source, and from the source, all that we ask (or asked) flows to us. This seemed easy. But I did not see the implication of the point. It actually means that it is my work to get my salvation and my future. God (smartly concealed as the source, and I suspect God is not even the source the book asks us to align with) has no role to play in this. Hold on. What did Jesus come to Earth to do then? Now, I can see the stark contradiction, but back then I couldn’t.

The problem was not just that – the problem was this Abraham was asking us to feel happy, feel good, and then all things would flow to us. When you look at it, it seems quite all right, but real men throughout history have done things irrespective of how they “felt” on a particular day. Correct? I am not even talking about the Bible. Just simple human history.

I even remember thinking at that time, from my own experience, that this couldn’t be true. I guess that was the Holy Spirit reaching out to me. But why did I feel that it couldn’t be true? Because back in my school days, I was the topper in my class almost always, but with being a topper comes the fear of how well (or not) I had done my exams. And I don’t remember even one exam where I wasn’t in deep fear, praying in church for God to get me the first rank. I did get the first rank, but I was getting it by doing everything that Abraham asks us not to do – feeling stressed, feeling worried, and drowning in complete fear. Then what tipped the balance in my favor? God, right? So, God got me the first rank despite me struggling with fear and worry.

I know many of you are thinking – dude, you got the first rank because you worked hard. Then, that’s my point. It didn’t matter how I felt. So long as I got up and did my work, I should be fine. Why then do I need Abraham? But that’s not all. According to Abraham, fear is the opposite of love, and the more we fear, the more we flow against the stream. If that is true, I couldn’t get first rank if I were in fear. It just doesn’t work that way, according to Abraham. And notice how we are systematically eliminating God from the equation. How could this be right?

Here's an even deeper problem – if we accept Abraham’s teaching, then good things happening to us puts the onus completely on us. I have to feel good, I should feel positive, I should feel love, and if I don’t feel any of these, I don’t align with the source or vortex. So, the work is mine. BUT THIS IS AN IMPOSSIBLE TASK FOR A HUMAN TO DO. Strong men/women get up and go even when they DON’T FEEL GOOD!! AND THE TOTAL INFERENCE OF ESTHER’S BOOKS IS THAT GOD (Source) CAN DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. HE CANNOT OVERRULE MY NON-ALIGNMENT WITH HIM, AND THEREFORE, I AM AT THE MERCY OF MY FEELINGS (not God). See, how this entire argument in caps makes God redundant??

And this was still not all…

What’s More? | The Seth Story | Before Abraham Was Seth

Jerry mentioned in one of the prefaces of one of the books that he learned about spirit guides by reading about another person who was also receiving messages from a group of entities called Seth. Obviously, I got curious about it and I went to find out more. So, I landed on an audio of this lady getting messages from Seth. I think it was on YouTube.

So, the part that I was listening to was where Seth was explaining that Jesus wasn’t crucified but was hidden to show the world that he was crucified. And when he walked out on the third day, his disciples saw him and thought that they were looking at the “come-back-from-dead” Jesus. So, that’s how they thought Jesus was God.

Believe you me – I believed this story. You know why? Because Islam believes this exact story, and so does Seth. That means, two against one (Bible), and therefore two wins. I stopped praying to Jesus. I treated him like another Biblical character, and I thought the source in Esther’s books was god. A total breakdown of the Godly architecture in my head. But back then, I believed it.

So many red flags, and I still powered on. Esther and Jerry Hick’s Abraham prophesied source became my god.

What Did It Do To Me? | I Was Shattered | Became Beyond Repair

The core belief of the Law of Attraction, that I only have to feel good about things I want in life and stay focused on them with good feelings until they manifest, made me a lazy good-for-nothing. It no longer mattered if I worked or not. All that mattered was how I felt. And guess what, I felt less energetic in the beginning, tired later, fatigued as the time went by, and totally miserable in a couple of years. I woke every morning in a miserable state, trying seriously hard to feel good. You understand the impossibility of the situation? And I couldn’t even call God, since my only job was to align with Him, and not to call Him to save me. So, no God, no good feelings, no work, no energy – a perfect recipe for disaster. But I was still hopeful.

Even in this disastrous path, I kept thinking how it was possible in the pre-Esther days for me to have felt miserable, and yet had good things happening to me. But I was too brainwashed by the Esther bible to make any sense of my own personal prior experience. And then it happened. I fell into depression, lost my job, had no source of income, and was with a totally miserable-loser attitude. I had ruined myself. But the stupidity was that I was still hopeful.

The transformation was complete. From a first ranker in school, a crazy big achiever in office, a great socializing character, I had become a loser with suicidal thoughts, no achievements, no work, no future path, and no God. Depression had become my reality. And guess what, I was still hopeful that the law of attraction would work overnight, and I would be back to the top again.

That never happened.

Salvation | Liberation | God Reaching Out To Me | Jesus Showing Me Why He is My God

I was in depression, hoping that things would turn around any day now. It didn’t. I still kept going after the hollow hope. Then my wife, who was watching me all along, took the help of one of my best friends to talk to me. That was the first time I stopped and looked at myself. In the entire scheme of things, seven years had passed. I wasn’t even physically looking like the previous me. I ruined myself inside out. The transformation was complete. Abraham won. I was stupid.

But the rebuilding started with me weeping every day and night at what I had done to myself. There was still no hope, and there was still no way to become rich. See, how horribly I was brainwashed? Even in the depressed state, I was hoping source would do something. The real Source had some other plans. He grabbed my hand at my lowest and took me out of the dark room.

I started to go to Church again, but this time with the intention of wanting to go to Church. I kept browsing through YouTube to know more about the Bible. I found many interesting people from whom I learned who Jesus was in our lives. I reached out to the Almighty, His Son Jesus, my Savior, and the Holy Spirit. Turns out, they were always there, but I wanted to align with some pseudo source. Well, what can I say?

Two years from then, I am in a much better space. I am back to working hard, no matter how I feel, and realize that God gives the increase. My work is my ministry, and for God is all my work (all these are Bible verses by the way. I am loosely quoting them here. 😊). Oh, if only I had known earlier, I could have saved seven years of my life. But then, I am glad that I am here now and all thanks to the real Source – my God!!

So, I am only going to request you to think twice about the law of attraction. Things work in our lives not because we attract them but because God grants them. In that is where we find: good feeling, feelings of accomplishment, gratefulness, appreciation, and an overall sense of goodness and happiness!!

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