Dangerous, Distracting And Deadly Environment Made Me A Loner

People who knows me know I love AirPods, earpiece, and music in general.

Honestly, I could stay indoor for days with only music and of course food without bothering myself with the outside world. I don't even need an Internet connection to keep myself from a lot of conversation, people, and things I don't fancy.

But this doesn't mean I'm not friendly with people. I am but due to some factors like the environment and the mentality of some people in the particular environment I'm in at a certain given time, I tend to act differently if need be.

If the environment I'm in is one filled with drug peddlers and people living an unhealthy lifestyle, I tend to be a loner.

This is the current situation of thing now that I'm back home. It actually wasn't this way before, but I think as things keeps on progressing so does human stupidity increases.

Sanity, however, is underatted because every so often what I think most of these people are suffering from is depression from past pain be it from childhood or in their life situation at the moment.

While I believe many people are suffering from a depressed mind state I also believe we are the only one who can set ourselves free.

Imagine giving a hungry drug peddler money to eat, and what he does next is to first satisfy his urge.

Yesterday I came home around 11'0clock due to me and some friends having a conversation about some set of people or let's say the majority of Nigerians especially young adults who are into drugs.

I don't usually stay out that late but due to some shocking news about someone who I knew from childhood overdosed on drugs and eventually gave up the ghost after he was rushed to the nearest hospital. He was declared dead few minutes of getting there. They said he could've survived if he had been brought in earlier.

Honestly, I've been in situations like this before where I find it difficult to kill my addictions.

Addition is something that deals with countless criteria like hanging out with other drug addicts and having conversations that center around getting high, getting girls and all sorts of unbeneficial fantasies that they could think of.

Nevertheless, I made the right choice when I quit sometime around last year and now one year sober.

The same goes for this certain person too when he once overdosed and was saved but eventually he didn't mind to clear his circle and call it quit with the environment that has cues scattered all over it to make you relapse again.

And now that he ventured back into the world of highs and lows he is never coming back. It's sad to see things pike this happening from day to day. If we are being honest, these things happen every day and there is nothing anyone can do about it.

At least this is what i believe as we each hold the power to write and rewrite our destiny as we see fit. My current environment right now is not fit for my current mind state and lifestyle which is majorly me hitting the gym, exercising, reading books, learning new skills and writing posts here on Hive.

Sometimes people now see me as a loner, but it is for incidents like this that I had to ditch my old circle as they have nothing tom offer you than Distracting Conversation that only leads to living a dangerous and unhealthy lifestyle.

Loner or Not…I like it this way as I can't see myself reverting to my old ways or old circle again. The friend I had a long talk with was also one of my favorites, and he's been a loner almost all his life but for me, who has kind have been the life of the party it's a new experience, but I'm loving the journey.

The only addiction however, I have right now is killing my darlings.

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