What's Gone Is Gone

I had an exam today, I should have been to a different city right now, just an hour remaining until that exam (might be long gone by the time you read this). I have decided not to sit for that exam today. This one single exam costs 200 dollars but I got this due to some promotional campaign free of cost. Maybe this is the reason for which I could easily call for not attending the exam.

Basically, I was excited to sit for the exam, and I was preparing as well. I even took preparation this morning as well, just before an hour of starting my journey. Those were the moments when I was struggling to decide whether I should go or not. Actually, since last night I have not feeling well, a little bit of sickness with a severe headache. It all started from a dispute I had yesterday, what a bad timing! Well, I thought things would get better by morning but when I woke up it was still the same, not feeling good enough to make the move for the journey. The mental sickness was affecting more than the physical one. As I was seeing myself mentally unstable I couldn't muster the courage to attempt to take the exam.

Right now I am feeling regret for not being able to take the exam, it could have been added to my CV to showcase my skill set. An entry-level certification but yet it does hold a value, even for a little, right? It's always better to have something instead of having nothing. You may say, now what's the use of ranting as the time is gone? It's not about ranting or regrets here, it's about letting the topic go and moving ahead with a fresh mind, and for that, I must clear the thoughts that have been piled up.

Well, I must say that I have been preparing for this for more than a month, maybe little by little but this was on my mind to crack. Didn't think of it to get dismissed like this. It's not even like I can attempt it again, anytime I want. The cost of it is more than my current capability to bear. Two hundred dollars is huge from the perspective of the place where I belong, also My current situation doesn't align with this expense to bear maybe in the future.

Feeling a little bit upset, what to do? Maybe go out for a walk, will it fill the gap? No. The only way to fill it is by working hard to improve the skill sets and be able to purchase the certification by acquiring the ability to buy. So for that, I must get up right now, make a cup of strong coffee to be caffeinated which triggers my concentration to its fullest, and work to be better for real.

The whole day has passed with these thoughts. Finally, its time to put the mud on it and walk away.

Have a great day,
Peace!!