Being The "Me" I Didn't See Myself Becoming

Sometimes, I just take a much longer time looking at myself using a mirror and I don't only admire my beauty or lovely smile, I tend to reflect on myself and applaud myself for becoming the "Me" that I see now. It's because I had never actually picture my life to be this and going great.

When I was still very little, I imagined most of my life living with my parents without thinking of the possibility that they would be separated for a long time. I grew older and tried my best to live past that incidence but I never imagined I'll grow to become a woman that I am not ashamed of.

Did I make bad decisions and mistakes? Yes, I had a lot of them growing up and even though I hated myself for them or I blamed others for being the reason, I've learned through them that they are all part of who I have become today. I'll say I have taken advice from myself and others.

It's an amazing that I still feel happy about myself for the simple fact of being able to live as myself even though I didn't turn out the way I had always dream. One of the many things I wanted to be was, a medical doctor. My inspiration to become one was so valid and exciting until reality hit me.

I may not have been the most brightest kid but I definitely had passion for studying and knowing more about whatever I was curious about, that may had contributed to how much I know in the areas I explored back then but there is one thing I never gave up from childhood and that is writing.

I may be writing now, which I am so grateful for but I always imagined myself to become a sort of book writer and publisher at one point in my life. I mean, I got good compliments on the writing works I didn't put in much efforts, just passion. So I imagined I'd be a book writer in the future.

Today, I'm no doctor but a degree holder of Microbiology that if I should pursue, I'd be working in a laboratory away from where the real medical work is done. Neither am I a book writer or have any book published but a passionate writer and a singer on a platform like Hive today.

Am I still happy about the "Me" I've become? Oh yes, I'm actually very happy because I've come to understand that life doesn't always go as planned and I can never tell if I would have been much happier becoming all I wanted to be. Am I satisfied with who I am now? Well, a "NO" will do.

I'm very much alive and that means one thing for me, I still have work to do with my life in affecting others' lives positively and build good memories for myself so I have less regrets in my older age. They say, "we grow wiser with time" and I can see that manifest in my life daily, I am grateful for it.

The science of becoming who you really want to be is not impossible but it is not a must you become that someone you want to be, sometimes, all we just need to be is a person that we can accept and grow with the love and passion we have inside us, not fearing the future.

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