RE: Some late blooming orchids in my garden.

Also, I can relate to so much of what you are expressing in this piece. I used to say that I must have been some kind of saint in a past life, because I didn't understand how I could deserve all of the fabulous luck of my life and particularmly why I deserved to have so many people who are all so wonderful in my life... And I moved..I chose to go far far away from them all and continued to make other choices to ensure it would be very difficult for me to even visit there and those folks, all... And these past ten/twelve.. Maybe 15 years now...I seem to continually be making these kinds of choices that have me burning off some sticky stuff stuck to my spirit, but I don't know if it's really there or what it I'm making myself pay for something and God doesn't even agree that there's any reason to 'pay for' anything, no debt, no karma... No guilt... Just ego trying to show how much it can endure? I'm not sure.