High School And Its Melodramas.

I was astonished at how popular I was without even realizing it. All the teachers thought I was worthy of holding the position, and that was the more reason I was baffled and never stopped to find rational reasons why they had consensually chosen someone like me.
"Someone who dislikes being shown in the limelight ".
"Someone who prefers staying behind the scenes ".
"Someone who doesn’t like taking up new responsibilities because she doesn't buy the idea of being held accountable for her people's actions".

I tried to boycott them all and respectfully turn down the offer, but all attempts to do that were to no avail. Therefore, so as not to be misperceived as "proud" or "defiant" I agreed to become the Senior Perfect Girl during my High School days after much pressure from teachers who I held in high esteem, consequently making an unpopular girl like me, the most sought-after by students, teachers, and other stakeholders of the school for almost a year.

From the onset, I didn’t feel lit about the whole new position, and that feeling didn’t change one bit even when I was officially appointed at the assembly ground, in front of multitudes of witnesses: the teachers, the students, and the management of the school. My lack of interest or passion to hold a leadership position made me struggle for weeks, I experienced difficulties in carrying out my tasks especially when I had to deal with students who were of the same grade as I was and also, administering corporal punishment and passing judgments without being impartial no matter who the person in question was - relatives, friends, classmates, etc.

"What needs to be done should be done anyway."

I started fighting the insecurities that come with stepping out of my comfort zone and I stopped sabotaging myself.
"I am capable"
"I can do it"
"I believe I can"
"Have gat this"
I came up with mantras and lived my daily life in school, focusing on them rather than the challenges I'm constantly confronted with. I made myself approachable and accessible, and also tried as much as possible not to be in anyone's bad books, which clearly, wasn’t an easy quest to do.

At the end of my tenure, I got both good and bad compliments. As a matter of fact, there was a particular one that stood out of them all, and that was when a junior student said it to my face and almost spitted on it while calling me a "wicked girl."
According to her, I seized her school sandals and that was because it wasn’t in conformity with the school dress code.
Unfortunately, she didn't get to retrieve it because the school management burnt all the wrong color sandals that were confiscated on that day.
"Was it my fault "?
"Am I the School Management "?

Back to the question, was I popular during High school?
I was hellishly popular even though, that reality didn't really sit well with me at that time.

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