Lost in Routine: A Day Without Direction

There are days when I don't know how to start, days when I feel like I don't know what to do first.

Should I have coffee first? Take a shower? Check the latest news online to see what's happening in the world, or go back to sleep because maybe I woke up on the wrong side of the bed?

And today is one of those days. I've been awake for about three hours and have just been doing random things. I did think about cleaning my working area and other stuff. In the end, I just made myself a cup of coffee and sat, staring into the distance while smoking. Hahaha!

When I got back to my table, I thought about writing about what I'm doing, feeling like my day has no direction.

To be honest, while writing this, I feel like going back to having coffee and smoking while staring into space. I don't really think about anything during those times, just wasting time.

And that's what I did, I went back outside to have coffee and smoke. Hahaha!

My mind is full of thoughts about what I need to do today, I have plans for the day, but the problem is I can't get started. Am I just lazy, or am I not in the mood?

But I know that sooner or later, I'll start moving and begin doing things, I just don't know what time I'll start.

Then I thought, is this what they call Monday Sickness? When it's Monday, you can't start properly and quickly with the things you plan to do in life? Hahaha!