WEEKEND REST = WEEKDAY ENERGY

These days I've been feeling lazy, and I think it has everything to do with my weekend. For the last two weeks, I've always been overworked, feeling the need to always rest, but it seems the rest hasn't been enough. I've had to enter the last two weeks with that feeling of weakness and tiredness. The thought of Monday alone was tiring and entering Monday with loads of activities didn't help at all. Although my job didn't suffer, every other unofficial activity suffered. I had always had to force myself to post on hive daily because even when I had free time. At a point I became somehow scared of what could be wrong with me, my laziness was affecting a lot of things and those around me suffered from it.

I have been so concerned about what could be wrong with me, perhaps I'm sick or something. In the last two weeks, the only reasonable thing I did when I came back home was eat, and I wouldn't even have been able to do that this past week if my younger sister hadn't come around to stay a while. She's always happy to cook and has thus been a blessing for that. Unlike the previous week when I wasn't eating well because I was too tired to cook. I would buy a loaf of bread and eat it for three days as I was also trying to manage the little funds I had. I had stocked my house with foodstuffs during the holidays, but I wasn't even feeling like eating my food.

Friends who ask me for favors have been very much disappointed by my laccadestical response, but I couldn't help it. At work, I would only work on the most important things and postpone the less important ones and feel like I didn't get enough sleep. Sometimes my heart would be racing fast as it normally does when I work 24 hours non stop which I did last about three weekends ago. I knew all I needed was a proper rest, which I had been trying to get, but for some reason, my body hadn't adjusted to it. So this weekend (Saturday) despite having my normal weekend plans, I chose to stay home, eat, and watch movies, I also decided not to go to my church's first service which begins at 6:30 am in the morning.

I made the decision and refused to feel like I was doing something wrong, but chose to feel like I needed to develop my mental health. And waking up today, I can say I feel better than I have ever felt in the last two weeks. That's obviously the reason why this post is coming in the morning instead of coming at night as usual. But I plan to retain the energy by not overworking myself in church today so I can take this energy into the week and finally touch everything I need to work on this week. This has taught me a valuable lesson of prioritizing my mental health as I work and ensuring I take out time to rest a bit so my body doesn't need this much time for a rest.